Of course that would happen...

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This time yesterday I was very happy. Both my girls were going over to their friends house and I was going to have some sneaky movie time. I was going to actually do something for myself and go to see Iron Man 3! I was sssooo looking forward to it, then the phone rang......Emma's friend cancelled for some reason or another and all I could see was my beautiful time by myself getting shoved back into the draw of self pity. Why the hell does this always happen to me? Why can't I ever get anything good for myself. I've been trying hard lately to break an incredibly deep hole of self pity that keeps me hating everything about my life. It always seems that everyone around me has it better than my family and I. I can't get babysitters coz we can't afford the extra for it. I can't afford to get extra tuition or dance lessons for my kids. We can't afford a house! Everyone I know has these things, why don't I?? As you can see it's still a work in progress, but yesterday I took a bit of a hit. I was kinda pissed off for the rest of the night and was very happy when the kids went to bed.
This morning I made a decision. After we dropped Christina off at her friends I asked Emma if she would like to go to Iron Man 3 with me, but it would be our secret. She was over the moon. So the upshot is, I've had a lovely afternoon with my 10 year old daughter, and what's more, we've got a little secret her sister will never know about LOL I still would have liked to have gone by myself, but both Emma and I really LOVED the movie and we had ice cream after.