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Spec was amazing. The services weren't as spiritual as I had expected, but just seeing how everyone interacted and the things that went on were spiritual enough. I had a blast and met awesome people such as Canadians, Zac, and of course, Bryce. I played softball and managed to get injured in both games I played. One of those injuries includind a concussion. Hah that was an adventure. I met Bryce 3 times. There was a bat in our room that flew at me and gave me a heart attack. We got the gold in softball... on the lowest level haha. I got tackled in softball. And on the first day, standing out on lawn, thanks to the lovely Haley Webb. Haley broke a guy's pot that he made for his mom. Amanda and I exfoliated and Anna thought that meant removing hair. Amanda, Haley, and I sang in the shower almost daily. I got my shot at being the grumpy camper. Beth got 2 scholarships. Way to go Smelly! Christi got engaged! hahaha just kidding. I finally got on base in softball. Stephanie, Chris, and Drew all had their birthdays.
So that's enough random recapping... here's what I planned on saying -
Paul, one of our leaders, kept asking me all week if something was wrong. So I'd lie and tell him I was fine, just tired. Finally he gave me a hug on the last day and told me to just accept people's hugs and love, and that it's ok to cry. And by him saying that, I realized I did need to talk to him about certain things. My talk with Zac also helped me realize that. And just hanging out with Bryce. So I talked to Paul about a bunch of serious things, although not in complete detail, and not quite about all of it, but things should be working out to where my parents will be getting a phone call and told how serious everything is. Then maybe things will shape up.
Also, I wish I were able to tell people what I think about them without sounding so lame. I wish I could tell people how much they mean to me without it sounding stupid. I wanted to tell Zac how much our talk meant and how I consider him a good friend now. And I wanted to tell Bryce what I thought of him too, but it came out so dumb and so now I'm slightly embarrassed, but ohhhh well. I'm going to finish cleaning my room... I'm on one of my OCD bouts.
If you're a praying person, please remember me tonight.
P/S: Let's disregaurd all those good things I said about Evan, and pretend I didn't say them at all. Thanks! :)
So that's enough random recapping... here's what I planned on saying -
Paul, one of our leaders, kept asking me all week if something was wrong. So I'd lie and tell him I was fine, just tired. Finally he gave me a hug on the last day and told me to just accept people's hugs and love, and that it's ok to cry. And by him saying that, I realized I did need to talk to him about certain things. My talk with Zac also helped me realize that. And just hanging out with Bryce. So I talked to Paul about a bunch of serious things, although not in complete detail, and not quite about all of it, but things should be working out to where my parents will be getting a phone call and told how serious everything is. Then maybe things will shape up.
Also, I wish I were able to tell people what I think about them without sounding so lame. I wish I could tell people how much they mean to me without it sounding stupid. I wanted to tell Zac how much our talk meant and how I consider him a good friend now. And I wanted to tell Bryce what I thought of him too, but it came out so dumb and so now I'm slightly embarrassed, but ohhhh well. I'm going to finish cleaning my room... I'm on one of my OCD bouts.
If you're a praying person, please remember me tonight.
P/S: Let's disregaurd all those good things I said about Evan, and pretend I didn't say them at all. Thanks! :)