It was in the Cards
So today I took the first of two pregnancy tests; first was positive. If the second one in one week comes up positive I will be calling in to the doctors and getting the pregnancy ball rolling. I am going to already pick up prenatals this evening when I pick up my refill medication. I consume under the safe amounts of caffeine, however considering my age and that I am already high risk I will no longer be consuming coffee for the duration of the pregnancy. I am already on a mild, pregnancy "safe" anti-depressant so I don't want to push the envelope any harder than I have to. I want to have this baby, I really do. It will be hard, but I will be ultimately okay if we don't succeed, but I want to do everything I can to succeed. If we are successful this will be it; two kids is PLENTY. The timing isn't great, but it's not like we were trying. No birth control means condoms are it and they are not 100%. Still, I am happy and excited and hopeful. The only people I have shared this with is my mom and my boss. I don't want to share too much just yet. I want to succeed, things feel different so far, I hope with all my heart that I can succeed.