Happy 22nd birthday to me...
Though I can't say the events of yesterday came out to be all that great of a birthday. Me, Chrissy, Chris, Jonathan, and later on, Sean, all went to 6 Flags for the day. Seeing as it was dirty ass Latino day, as well as a Saturday, the fucking park was PACKED. It took us over an hour to get into the damn place. On top of that, I swear that the trash and scum of just about EVERY race, color, creed, and ethnicity was there. Every ride had a group of rude mother fuckers cutting in line. I paid 50 bucks to get in, and we ended up going on 4 rides. It was a TOTAL waste. Then it was back to my house for cake and then me, Sean, Chris, and Jonathan went to Bahama Breeze for dinner and met up with Larry and Monica. Kelly and Melissa stopped by but didn't stay. That was about the extent of the day. I'm glad at least that I got to spend the day with my friends, but I'm pissed off at the fact that most of my friends didn't even bother to call me back. I'm SO pissed at Pat right now for not even getting back to me. I mean shit, even HEATHER sent me a text message saying happy birthday, and I don't even talk to her anymore (she's another one who showed just how much she "cared" about me in the end...what a waste) And I am no longer friends with a certain unnamed individual because shes a total 2 faced BITCH who is so totally dick whipped and has her head so far up her new boyfriend's ass that she can't even see strait. Now let me as a general question. Would you be angry and hurt if someone who you regarded as a close friend told you they were gonna go out with you on your birthday, and then at the last minute decided to go to fucking Dave and Busters with their boyfriend (whom ever since they started dating had no more time for you at all) and was just like "sorry, don't be mad"? Yea well this was the last damn straw for me. Ever since you started seeing that guy you have TOTALLY shut me out and made me feel like nothing. I think, you asshole, that your forgetting who it was that supported you when you were so confused about how you felt about this guy and helped you try and sort those feelings out. I believe it was me who, when you were all upset and stressed out over school, told you to come hang out and cheered you up again. Oh, and theres also that time when you graduated and had nothing to do the following night and I took you down to Atlantic City to celebrate and have a good time, rather than sit in the house and do nothing. So you mean to tell me that I have no reason to be upset that you have decided to shut me out ever since you started dating this tool? This just goes to show how much of a backstabbing bitch you really are. And you have the nerve to sit there and act like I shouldn't be pissed off and call ME rude. And if your fucking boyfriend wants to stick his nose into shit that does not concern him and wants to start shit with me, tell him to come say it to my damn face. Hopefully you at least wont fuck up your relationship with him like you fucked up our friendship. Cause this time I am DONE. Every time I let you back in, you do something like this. So to hell with you. I'm better than that and deserve better friends than the one you have shown yourself to be...or not be. In any case, I'm not gonna let it get to me. I've got so much on my mind right now and don't have the means to sort it all out, and the LAST thing I need is shit like this getting in the way. Already this summer is starting to suck. Hopefully, it will pick up and get better. Damn, I can't believe I'm 22 already. It feels like yesterday that I turned 21...can't believe it has already been a year. I think it's time to start enjoying life a bit more. Because before I know it, I'll be 30 and life will be very complicated. The last thing I want and one thing I fear the most, is looking back later in life and realizing that I never lived and wasted my youth away. But to tell you the truth, it would ALSO be nice if my friends would bother more often and actually have the will and drive to start doing new and different things. Well I'll keep my fingers crossed and mind open, and hopefully this will turn out to be a great summer after all...