Finally, I can exhale...
My vow to update this thing more frequently has been short lived, but then again so has any personal time I have had as of late. Thank GOD my school semester is finally fucking OVER. So far I know that I got an A on my American Lit final (tha damn 10 page paper I had to write), and seeing as I got an A or A+ on everything I did in that class, I'm pretty confident that my average was almost 100. Math and Politics cam kiss my ass. Anyway, I have been so damn busy lately that I have barely had time to go to karate or kung fu. I haven't been to kung fu in 2 weeks and haven't done tai chi in a month. I need to step it up because I'm getting my brown belt next month in karate and in June I'm attending a seminar for kung fu. It's something for the weekend thats being taught by Grand Master Cheung (hes the founder and owner of the international chain of kung fu schools that I train at as well as a childhood friend of Bruce Lee...he's actually the man that taught this style of martial arts to Bruce Lee during their childhood)and I need to get some training in so that I don't go not having any idea what I'm doing. It's all weekend long too, and seeing as its like 5 hours a day, I hope I don't end up passing out from being exhausted. On a personal level I'm doing great. Since me and Heather broke up, I really took the last few months to do some reflecting and soul searching and I have come out of it a much happier person. I've let a lot of anger go and learned to deal with a lot of things about me that I didn't like...and I have also changed them. I don't get as frustrated as easily as I used to, and rather than get pissed at things, I've learned to just sit back and take a deep breath. Though I still tend to curse at the Xbox, lol! But I am definitley a better person. The best part is, I can finally say that I am OVER Heather and ready to move on. I've realized that I will ALWAYS care about her and part of me will ALWAYS love her, but at the same time, I DON'T want her back. As strong as I felt about her, I was wrong to think that my feelings were her stronger than they were for Chrissy. In the end, I realize that I was wrong and it was a mistake to think that. I wish Heather the absolute best, but I think back to what she did and how she turned her back on me when I needed her and then just gave up on us. When me and Chrissy broke up, at least she shed a tear and showed that at least she cared. I wish I still talked to Chrissy. Despite everthing that was said and done and as much as I was hurt over what was done, in the end I fucked up the chance to still talk to her and be friends. Even though I made peace with her, I still regret what I said and did in the end. Heather was SO cold when she broke it off, but then again she changed A LOT towards the end. But whatever, she just was not the one for me. And I can't be totally bitter because I have a head full of GREAT memories and times to look back on. For that I will always thank and be gratefull to her. I would say I have more to talk about since my last entry, but life has been pretty much work and school. Chris Joined the Navy and will be leaving for school in November (though he could end up leaving this month but we aren't sure) and Larry is with Monica in Mexico for a month. I don't talk to Pat that much, and heard from him Friday night for the first time in awhile. Me and Chris went to see Kingdom of Heaven Friday night...GREAT movie. Star Wars Episode III for Xbox came out last week so I've been playing that a lot. I FINALY beat Doom 3 and the expansion (lol, go me!). Yea that has pretty much been my life the past few weeks. Speaking of Episode III, only 2 more weeks! Me and Chris (and possibly Jeff if he can come up from VA that week) are going to the midnight showing. I can't wait. Today king of sucked because it was mother's day and my mom is all the way in Florida, so I basically spent the day by myself. They are definitley moving back from there, but it will be at least another year before they can do so. The Commerce annual WOW Awards were Saturday, but I was not nominated this year so I didn't bother to go. Besides, I wasn't going all the way up to NYC for the day to do nothing. Instead I just had some people over. Seeing as I will now have the house to myself just about every weekend till September, I will be having people over to hand out a lot. Well in any case, that's about it for now. I'll update again soon!