Letting you go-04
Title: Letting you go-04/??
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band(s): the GazettE, Dir en grey
Pairing: Kyo x Ruki, ReitaxOFC
Overall Rating: PG-13 R maybe for strong language
Disclaimer: They are real people too, or at least that’s what my therapists says. So no I guess I only own them in my mind
Summary: Reita breaks up with Ruki for his ex lover (who cheated on him) leaving Ruki heartbroken and slightly depressed. Determined to move on with his life, Ruki goes out clubbing but catches the attention of someone he was trying to the most to forget.
Warning: Strong language, homosexual relationships
chapter four
Ruki's POV
I woke up that afternoon and Kyo was still pressed against me and before your mind falls in the gutter, me and Kyo did NOT have sex last night. All we did was kiss then we went to sleep. It was a nice feeling though having someone so close, it reminded me of old times. I smiled and tried to get him off and once again he pushed me off the bed. Bastard. He needs to stop doing that, I bruise easily dammit. I got up and went to the bathroom and started my daily beauty routine. First I brushed my teeth, took a shower, and shaved certain parts...so not manly but I don't like body hair...then got out. Now I had to decide what I was gonna do to my hair. I brought a box of brown hair dye and I don't know if I want to dye it or leave it blond. I guess I should. Blond is sooo played out. I sighed really dramatically and ripped open the box and started mixing shit and all that good stuff.
So I'm like parting my hair and whatnot and here comes Kyo, stumbling into my bathroom, yawning and scratching himself. Not cool Kyo. Again this man pushes me to get to the toilet and starts to pee.
"Like, am I not standing here or something? That's nasty. I don't want to see you pee."
"Then get the hell out." he grunted.
"This is my bathroom!"
"Ruki...shut up. It's too fucking early for your bitch fit." he said and flushed the toilet. He walked to the sink, pushed me again then washed his hands. "What are you doing up this early for anyway?"
"Kyo, its freaking 1:30 in the afternoon."
"Like I said, 'what are you doing up this early in the morning?" I rolled my eyes and went back to doing my hair. Forgot who I was talking to.
"I'm dying my hair."
"Finally getting ready of blond huh? Thank God, you were starting to look like everyone else."
"Do not..." I said pouting. It was true. I kept seeing message boards with people saying I could be Byou's twin brother. "And anyway, your hair is blond too."
"No..." he moved me to look in the mirror. "...it’s more like a dark blond, brownish color." I rolled my eyes again.
"Still has blond in it."
"Whatever." he said and I assumed he went back into the room but I could here my refrigerator being opened and Kyo yelling at me that he was hungry. Not my problem. If he wants something to eat he'll cook or order take out...or mooch off Shinya like he's been doing. I'm about to tell him this but I was cut off by someone knocking on the door. I told Kyo to answer it and I heard him say 'Not my house.' but I could tell he answered it anyway. He came back and told me it was Reita at the door. I looked at myself in the mirror and there was no way I was going out there looking like this. I mean I know the man seen worse but this is embarrassing. I look like one of those crazy people with the foil and crap in my hair. I forgot he was coming over today. Dammit.
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"Hey Ruki. You look stupid." says Reita. Who the fuck gave him permission to come in? And insult me too? He better hurry up and get out my house before I kick his ass.
"Get your shit and get the hell out Reita." He raised his hands and backed up a little.
"Whoa what's your problem?"
"Nothing just hurry up."
"Whatever" he said and then went and got his stuff. I checked my hair one more time before I deemed it ready to be washed out. I looks good. I went to the tub and rinsed it out then toweled it dry. 'Damn I look good'
I really look good with brown hair. I flat iron it straight...I ain't going anywhere today...fuck it.
"Ruki?! Where are the cords to my amp?" shouted Reita. He was standing in my closet and blocking my way inside.
"How the hell should I know? Move, you’re in my way."
"What the fuck is your problem?!" And in comes Kyo with a giant salad bowl filled with Trixs and a serving spoon. Who the fuck does he think has to wash that? He went and sat on the bed and ate a little before talking.
"Little fucker's been acting like this since he woke up." he said with a mouthful of cereal.
"Well maybe it was because you pushed me out the bed." Out the corner of my eye I could see Reita whip his head at me with a questioning look on his face.
"Kyo stayed the night?" he asked.
"Yeah. I didn't want him passing out on his way back home so I made him sleep here now move." He finally moved and I was able to pick out clothes to wear. I plan on being lazy today so I picked out sweatpants and an oversized shirt. I know I said earlier I would never wear this but I meant dress like that and going out in public. I'm in my house and if I want to dress like a bum then dammit that’s my business. I went and sat next to Kyo on the bed. "Are you almost done?" I said stealing a piece of cereal which resulted in me getting my fingers bit. Like what the fuck?! Who does that?
"Y-yeah." He went here and there before he announced he was done and I started to walk him to the door but I see this deadly contagious diseased tumor sitting on my couch and playing with my dog.
"Reita why the fuck this skank bitch in my house?!"
That's what I want to say but I know I have to make it seem like I'm okay with her being around when really all I want to do is put her head under water until the bubbles stop.
"Oh Hiromi I didn't know you were here. How are you?" I asked so sweet and innocent. God this is torture.
"I'm fine. How about you?"
"I've been better. Trust me. Well you should get going now Reita." I said and hurried them both out before slamming the door and running for the kitchen. I must have annoyed Kyo cuz he came out and told me to shut up with all the noise and asked what the hell I was doing. I was currently filling a bucket with hot water and pouring various cleaning solutions into it. I grabbed a scrubbing brush and proceeded to the living room and staring at my couch like it just took the last pair of designer shoes I've been wanting.
"Ruki what are you doing?" he said again. I went to the couch and scrubbed at the spot Hiromi was just sitting at.
"I have to clean the couch or everyone else that sits here will turn into a backstabbing cheating whore."
"You’re being stupid. Anyway I'm going, I have practice." He went back down the hall and I heard the shower running and by the time he came out I was done and dumping the nasty dirty and foul water down the kitchen drain. I washed my hands and Kyo was at the door already putting on his shoes. He opened the door to leave.
"Bye Kyo.
"Hey Ruki I forgot----"
"Bye Taka." said Kyo, and he left.
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Whatever Reita was going to say it didn't matter anymore. Kyo had left and Reita was staring back at me with a hurt and angry look on his face. He stood there a little longer then left too. I closed the door and sat on the couch. He must think we're dating or at least fucking. I would call and explain but I don't have to. He isn't my boyfriend. If I want to have men in my house and fuck them...even though I'm not then who is he to say I can't. I no longer have a commitment to him. I think he might be jealous actually. He had the same look on his face when he saw me and Aoi hugging. Aoi was drunk and he held the hug longer and was rubbing my back and whispering R rated stuff in my ear...I never he was so kinky. Well Reita and Uruha finally broke us apart and they both looked like they wanted to hit me. I didn't even to anything.
I thought about Kyo and the thought of us together again came to my mind and I quickly tried to will the thought away. He really hurt me all those years ago and I really have been trying to avoid him. Months after we broke up Toshiya would call and ask if I wanted to hang and I would always say I couldn't but only cuz I knew there was the possibly Kyo would be there too. I couldn't handle being around him after all the mean and hurtful things he said.
"You a whore Ruki. I know you spread your legs for him.' and 'If you wanted me to stay then you should have been sucking my dick and not the no nose freaks' He hit me and kept calling me names and I knew he didn't mean it, he was drunk but when he sobered up I was expecting an apology. He always did when we fought but he didn't. I started to think he really meant it but after talking to Kaoru I knew he really didn't. It was all just a front and he wanted to hurt me so he wasn't going to apologize anytime soon.
I still remembered all the good times though and they always outweighed the bad. How he would sneak little kissed when he thought no one was watching or how when he was touring in America he would send me text messages saying 'I miss you Taka' and 'Wish I was next to you' He could be so cheesy but that's what I loved about him. He wasn't trying but it came out that way. He was also always moody but I guess that was just him. His moods also got resolved by having rough brutal sex with me and leaving me paralyzed from the waist down. That really happened one time and I was so scared. I really thought I wasn't going to walk again. We were doing it doggy style and he bent my back to far and all I felt was a sharp pain go up my spine. He had a doctor come up and they said it was just nerve and should go away if I just took it easy......Where the hell did that come from?
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The rest of the day all I could think of was Kyo like some love struck high school girl. I decided to go out shopping to help clear my mind but it really didn't help seeing Dir en grey posters everywhere. By sheer cowinky dink I ran into Shinya and Toshiya in a store that sold exclusive jewelry.
"Oh hey Ruki!"
"Hey Toshiya. What are you doing here?"
"I promised Shinya I would give him 100g's to blow if he blew me." I saw Shinya turn red and almost drop the ring he was holding.
"Toshimasa Hara! When you say it like that you make me sound like a complete gold digging whore!"
"But your my whore." he said with a big grin on his face earning him a slap upside the head. Shinya held out his hand like he was expecting something.
"Ow...sorry. Oh are you ready to pay?" he pulled out a credit card from his wallet and Shinya left with a smile on his face. "So what happened with you and Kyo? He was kinda out of it today at practice. Kaoru ended practice early because of it. So what'd you do? Have passionate sex?" Once again his lewd comments earned him another slap.
"We didn't do anything. I made him stay at my house because he looked too tired to walk home."
"Uh huh...sure. That's all that happened. C'mon Ruki you can tell me. Who am I gonna tell?" he said with a pleading look. Yeah right.
"How about the whole world?!" said Shinya handing back the card. "Oh and I maxed out your card. I think it might have gone into the negatives." he said casually. Toshiya's mouth dropped to the floor as he looked at his boyfriend.
"How?! This is the only place we've been. Plus there was like a 40,000 dollar limit on that card."
"I guess your going to have use more cards then huh?" said Shinya.
"Anyway guys, what's Kyo's number?" I said making Toshiya point his finger at me.
"Ah ha! I knew there was something going on."
"Quiet down Hara your making a scene." scolded Shinya. Shinya gave me Kyo's number and I also got his. I needed a new shopping buddy and I never knew Shin could drop G's like that. Sorry Uruha but...you're fired, just like the Trump man himself. After that I went home and put all my stuff away then called Kyo. It rung about 6 times before he picked up.
"Kyo, I miss you..."
TBC
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Comments are love!!
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band(s): the GazettE, Dir en grey
Pairing: Kyo x Ruki, ReitaxOFC
Overall Rating: PG-13 R maybe for strong language
Disclaimer: They are real people too, or at least that’s what my therapists says. So no I guess I only own them in my mind
Summary: Reita breaks up with Ruki for his ex lover (who cheated on him) leaving Ruki heartbroken and slightly depressed. Determined to move on with his life, Ruki goes out clubbing but catches the attention of someone he was trying to the most to forget.
Warning: Strong language, homosexual relationships
chapter four
Ruki's POV
I woke up that afternoon and Kyo was still pressed against me and before your mind falls in the gutter, me and Kyo did NOT have sex last night. All we did was kiss then we went to sleep. It was a nice feeling though having someone so close, it reminded me of old times. I smiled and tried to get him off and once again he pushed me off the bed. Bastard. He needs to stop doing that, I bruise easily dammit. I got up and went to the bathroom and started my daily beauty routine. First I brushed my teeth, took a shower, and shaved certain parts...so not manly but I don't like body hair...then got out. Now I had to decide what I was gonna do to my hair. I brought a box of brown hair dye and I don't know if I want to dye it or leave it blond. I guess I should. Blond is sooo played out. I sighed really dramatically and ripped open the box and started mixing shit and all that good stuff.
So I'm like parting my hair and whatnot and here comes Kyo, stumbling into my bathroom, yawning and scratching himself. Not cool Kyo. Again this man pushes me to get to the toilet and starts to pee.
"Like, am I not standing here or something? That's nasty. I don't want to see you pee."
"Then get the hell out." he grunted.
"This is my bathroom!"
"Ruki...shut up. It's too fucking early for your bitch fit." he said and flushed the toilet. He walked to the sink, pushed me again then washed his hands. "What are you doing up this early for anyway?"
"Kyo, its freaking 1:30 in the afternoon."
"Like I said, 'what are you doing up this early in the morning?" I rolled my eyes and went back to doing my hair. Forgot who I was talking to.
"I'm dying my hair."
"Finally getting ready of blond huh? Thank God, you were starting to look like everyone else."
"Do not..." I said pouting. It was true. I kept seeing message boards with people saying I could be Byou's twin brother. "And anyway, your hair is blond too."
"No..." he moved me to look in the mirror. "...it’s more like a dark blond, brownish color." I rolled my eyes again.
"Still has blond in it."
"Whatever." he said and I assumed he went back into the room but I could here my refrigerator being opened and Kyo yelling at me that he was hungry. Not my problem. If he wants something to eat he'll cook or order take out...or mooch off Shinya like he's been doing. I'm about to tell him this but I was cut off by someone knocking on the door. I told Kyo to answer it and I heard him say 'Not my house.' but I could tell he answered it anyway. He came back and told me it was Reita at the door. I looked at myself in the mirror and there was no way I was going out there looking like this. I mean I know the man seen worse but this is embarrassing. I look like one of those crazy people with the foil and crap in my hair. I forgot he was coming over today. Dammit.
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"Hey Ruki. You look stupid." says Reita. Who the fuck gave him permission to come in? And insult me too? He better hurry up and get out my house before I kick his ass.
"Get your shit and get the hell out Reita." He raised his hands and backed up a little.
"Whoa what's your problem?"
"Nothing just hurry up."
"Whatever" he said and then went and got his stuff. I checked my hair one more time before I deemed it ready to be washed out. I looks good. I went to the tub and rinsed it out then toweled it dry. 'Damn I look good'
I really look good with brown hair. I flat iron it straight...I ain't going anywhere today...fuck it.
"Ruki?! Where are the cords to my amp?" shouted Reita. He was standing in my closet and blocking my way inside.
"How the hell should I know? Move, you’re in my way."
"What the fuck is your problem?!" And in comes Kyo with a giant salad bowl filled with Trixs and a serving spoon. Who the fuck does he think has to wash that? He went and sat on the bed and ate a little before talking.
"Little fucker's been acting like this since he woke up." he said with a mouthful of cereal.
"Well maybe it was because you pushed me out the bed." Out the corner of my eye I could see Reita whip his head at me with a questioning look on his face.
"Kyo stayed the night?" he asked.
"Yeah. I didn't want him passing out on his way back home so I made him sleep here now move." He finally moved and I was able to pick out clothes to wear. I plan on being lazy today so I picked out sweatpants and an oversized shirt. I know I said earlier I would never wear this but I meant dress like that and going out in public. I'm in my house and if I want to dress like a bum then dammit that’s my business. I went and sat next to Kyo on the bed. "Are you almost done?" I said stealing a piece of cereal which resulted in me getting my fingers bit. Like what the fuck?! Who does that?
"Y-yeah." He went here and there before he announced he was done and I started to walk him to the door but I see this deadly contagious diseased tumor sitting on my couch and playing with my dog.
"Reita why the fuck this skank bitch in my house?!"
That's what I want to say but I know I have to make it seem like I'm okay with her being around when really all I want to do is put her head under water until the bubbles stop.
"Oh Hiromi I didn't know you were here. How are you?" I asked so sweet and innocent. God this is torture.
"I'm fine. How about you?"
"I've been better. Trust me. Well you should get going now Reita." I said and hurried them both out before slamming the door and running for the kitchen. I must have annoyed Kyo cuz he came out and told me to shut up with all the noise and asked what the hell I was doing. I was currently filling a bucket with hot water and pouring various cleaning solutions into it. I grabbed a scrubbing brush and proceeded to the living room and staring at my couch like it just took the last pair of designer shoes I've been wanting.
"Ruki what are you doing?" he said again. I went to the couch and scrubbed at the spot Hiromi was just sitting at.
"I have to clean the couch or everyone else that sits here will turn into a backstabbing cheating whore."
"You’re being stupid. Anyway I'm going, I have practice." He went back down the hall and I heard the shower running and by the time he came out I was done and dumping the nasty dirty and foul water down the kitchen drain. I washed my hands and Kyo was at the door already putting on his shoes. He opened the door to leave.
"Bye Kyo.
"Hey Ruki I forgot----"
"Bye Taka." said Kyo, and he left.
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Whatever Reita was going to say it didn't matter anymore. Kyo had left and Reita was staring back at me with a hurt and angry look on his face. He stood there a little longer then left too. I closed the door and sat on the couch. He must think we're dating or at least fucking. I would call and explain but I don't have to. He isn't my boyfriend. If I want to have men in my house and fuck them...even though I'm not then who is he to say I can't. I no longer have a commitment to him. I think he might be jealous actually. He had the same look on his face when he saw me and Aoi hugging. Aoi was drunk and he held the hug longer and was rubbing my back and whispering R rated stuff in my ear...I never he was so kinky. Well Reita and Uruha finally broke us apart and they both looked like they wanted to hit me. I didn't even to anything.
I thought about Kyo and the thought of us together again came to my mind and I quickly tried to will the thought away. He really hurt me all those years ago and I really have been trying to avoid him. Months after we broke up Toshiya would call and ask if I wanted to hang and I would always say I couldn't but only cuz I knew there was the possibly Kyo would be there too. I couldn't handle being around him after all the mean and hurtful things he said.
"You a whore Ruki. I know you spread your legs for him.' and 'If you wanted me to stay then you should have been sucking my dick and not the no nose freaks' He hit me and kept calling me names and I knew he didn't mean it, he was drunk but when he sobered up I was expecting an apology. He always did when we fought but he didn't. I started to think he really meant it but after talking to Kaoru I knew he really didn't. It was all just a front and he wanted to hurt me so he wasn't going to apologize anytime soon.
I still remembered all the good times though and they always outweighed the bad. How he would sneak little kissed when he thought no one was watching or how when he was touring in America he would send me text messages saying 'I miss you Taka' and 'Wish I was next to you' He could be so cheesy but that's what I loved about him. He wasn't trying but it came out that way. He was also always moody but I guess that was just him. His moods also got resolved by having rough brutal sex with me and leaving me paralyzed from the waist down. That really happened one time and I was so scared. I really thought I wasn't going to walk again. We were doing it doggy style and he bent my back to far and all I felt was a sharp pain go up my spine. He had a doctor come up and they said it was just nerve and should go away if I just took it easy......Where the hell did that come from?
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The rest of the day all I could think of was Kyo like some love struck high school girl. I decided to go out shopping to help clear my mind but it really didn't help seeing Dir en grey posters everywhere. By sheer cowinky dink I ran into Shinya and Toshiya in a store that sold exclusive jewelry.
"Oh hey Ruki!"
"Hey Toshiya. What are you doing here?"
"I promised Shinya I would give him 100g's to blow if he blew me." I saw Shinya turn red and almost drop the ring he was holding.
"Toshimasa Hara! When you say it like that you make me sound like a complete gold digging whore!"
"But your my whore." he said with a big grin on his face earning him a slap upside the head. Shinya held out his hand like he was expecting something.
"Ow...sorry. Oh are you ready to pay?" he pulled out a credit card from his wallet and Shinya left with a smile on his face. "So what happened with you and Kyo? He was kinda out of it today at practice. Kaoru ended practice early because of it. So what'd you do? Have passionate sex?" Once again his lewd comments earned him another slap.
"We didn't do anything. I made him stay at my house because he looked too tired to walk home."
"Uh huh...sure. That's all that happened. C'mon Ruki you can tell me. Who am I gonna tell?" he said with a pleading look. Yeah right.
"How about the whole world?!" said Shinya handing back the card. "Oh and I maxed out your card. I think it might have gone into the negatives." he said casually. Toshiya's mouth dropped to the floor as he looked at his boyfriend.
"How?! This is the only place we've been. Plus there was like a 40,000 dollar limit on that card."
"I guess your going to have use more cards then huh?" said Shinya.
"Anyway guys, what's Kyo's number?" I said making Toshiya point his finger at me.
"Ah ha! I knew there was something going on."
"Quiet down Hara your making a scene." scolded Shinya. Shinya gave me Kyo's number and I also got his. I needed a new shopping buddy and I never knew Shin could drop G's like that. Sorry Uruha but...you're fired, just like the Trump man himself. After that I went home and put all my stuff away then called Kyo. It rung about 6 times before he picked up.
"Kyo, I miss you..."
TBC
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