Letting you go-02
Title: Letting you go-02/??
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band: the GazettE
Pairing:ReitaxRuki, ReitaxOFC
Overall Rating: PG-13, R
Disclaimer: They are real people too, or at least that’s what my therapists says. So no I guess I only own them in my mind
Summary: Reita breaks up with Ruki for his ex lover (who cheated on him) leaving Ruki heartbroken and slightly depressed. Determined to move on with his life, Ruki goes out clubbing but catches the attention of someone he was trying to the most to forget.
Warning: Strong language, homosexual relationships, mentions of hetero relationstions
A/N: italics are inner thoughts
chapter two
Ruki's POV
It was really late when I woke up, almost eleven. I sit up and try to shake the sleep from my body as I look around the dark room, my face falling. 'No wonder I can't get that dick out of my mind. All his shit is still here.' I roll my eyes and fall back on the bed. Dammit. I reach out my back pocket for my cell phone and look up his number and call him. I know it’s really late but I need to get him before he makes plans for tomorrow.
On the other end I hear the worst sound ever imaginable. It was Reita and he was cumming, inside of Hiromi, calling her name. I loved hearing Reita call out my name as he reached his peak because I knew it was because of me, now it's because of her and it makes me want to vomit. I let the initial shock and utter disgust pass before answering him back.
"Reita, you need to come and get your stuff out my house." I don't give him time to answer me back because right now I just don't want to hear his voice. I can't keep getting like this. After he gets his stuff I can finally let him go. I don't need him to be happy, if anything he's making me miserable. Yeah that's right! After he comes and gets his stuff I'll start dating again. Only thing is, I don't really have my eyes set on anybody. Let’s see...who else is out there? I can't really think of anybody at the moment. I guess I'll have to go out and look.
TICK TOCK TICK TOCK
...I'm hungry. I guess I should go feed myself...You know what? I think I'll just go get wasted tonight. We don't have practice tomorrow and I've had a shitty day. I get up and go to my closet to find something that screams sex, even though I'm looking for it but I still like to see the looks on people’s faces when I walk into a building. Does that make me conceited? Oh well. Out of all the clothes I have in my closet, I don't know what to where. Can you believe that? Me...not knowing what to wear.
I haven't had time to go shopping for anything new and when we did go out clubbing, Rei never let me wear stuff like that so I stopped buying them. I would put on the older ones but he made me throw those out and besides, they are out of style. Maybe I should call Uru for something. He probably has nothing but short shorts and garters and I just can't pull it off the same way so there's no reason for me to embarrass myself. Maybe I should just stay in. I can get drunk at my own house.
No Taka, you deserve to go out and have a little fun. I guess I'll get dress then. I pick out simple clothes cuz now I don't really feel like going so I won't get all dressed up when I'm in a bad mood. It was the outfit from the Chizuru PV that I 'borrowed.' And yes...that’s my idea of simple clothes. Like you'll really see me in jeans and a plain T-shirt...please. Anyway I go in the bathroom to take my shower and I see more of Reita's stuff.
He has like he shampoo and cologne and stuff in here. I want to smell it but that’s just creepy. Like I need to sniff his stuff....not that kind of stuff either....perverts. Seeing it kinda pisses me off though cuz I brought it for him like...2 days before he broke up with me. I rolled my eyes and turned on the water for my shower and set it to my preferred temperature.
When it heats up I get undressed and get in. It was really quiet in here now. My apartment I mean. Usually there would be the noise of a soccer game playing or Reita playing his bass but the only sound right now is the water and my shallow breathing. I don't like this. Being alone makes my mind wander and that’s never a good thing. I start to wash and get ready for my night out. After I get dressed I start on my on hair. I don't know what to do to it so I get lazy and flip it like in the PV. I look in the mirror and I'm pleased with the results. I threw on some make up, grab the fedora and walk out the door.
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So right now I'm sitting in the VIP and BORED OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND!! There is nobody here. I knew I should have stayed home. I mean yeah there are some hot guys here but none that compare to Reita. I really wish I could hate him. I REALLY REALLY wish I could stop thinking about him. This shit isn't healthy and I absolutely REFUSE to be the devastated 'girlfriend' that gains like 40 pounds in chocolate and ice cream because of that bastard! I take a shot of the vodka that I had forgotten and scrunch my face up at the strong taste. I STILL don't see how Uru does it. I shake off the feel and get up to leave. On my way out I have cut through the other VIP booth and as I'm about to leave I hear someone yell out 'Hey Kyo! Isn't that your ex-boyfriend?' WHAT THE EFF?!?!? That voice sounds very familiar and before I have a chance to figure out who it is, the person comes over and hugs me. "Hey Ruki! Fancy meeting you here."
'Toshiya.' I should have known...and ran...fast.
"Come over and have a drink with us." he says.
"I'm sorry Toshiya but I really have to go. I have early practice in the morning."
"C'mon just one drink? Please?" he pouts a little. Even though they ditched the visual kei a long time ago, Toshiya can still pull of that irresistible pout. Crap.
"Fine. One drink." He claps his hands and pulls me over to their table. "Everyone Ruki will be joining us for a while. Is that ok?" he asks. I look up and see that everyone is staring at me with bored expressions. I feel kinda insulted. I'm Ruki bitch. Be happy I decided to grace you with my presence. I'm just kidding..I'm not that conceited. Kaoru shrugs his shoulders. "Sure." Well this awkward. I haven't been around these guys for years! The last time I remember seeing them was like in...I don't know 03' I wasn't even nowhere near being famous and they had already taken Japan by storm...well the rock side of Japan. We really never talked. I was only around them cuz of Kyo. If I did talk to them it was just Toshiya, everyone else tried to avoid me, or at least seemed to. But the main reason I didn't talk was because of Kaoru. I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm scared of the man. He just looks...agnry, like I would be terrified of having sex with him.
"Can we just order the drink so I can go home please?" I asked.
"Sure Ruki. Why do want to leave so bad?"
"No reason. I just want to go home."
I'm waiting for Toshiya to come back with the drinks that he ordered for everyone and I feel sooo uncomfortable right now. I didn't think I would be looking at Kyo unless it was on the cover of a magazine or TV. As much I don't want to, I look in his direction and I see that he has the most bored expression on his face. He's just....blah. I also see that the rest of the band members are kinda bored too. Kaoru and Die are talking about something...I don't want to know either. I come to know his perverted ways. That and Kaoru looks like he's about to knock the shit out of him. I continue to look around and I see that Shinya isn't here. "Hey where's Shinya?"
"Bathroom." That was Kyo. No latter had he said that Shinya comes back up and sits next Kyo. Now Kyo perks up a little. He starts to rub on Shinya's leg and kiss him on the neck, which I found really weird cuz Kyo is NOT the type to show affection. Or any emotion besides depression, hate and anger for that matter. "Stop it Kyo! Toshiya will get mad again." say Shinya. 'What does Toshiya has to do with anything.'
"So I don't care and neither should you."
"Kyo I mean it. Stop!" Luckily for Shinya, Toshiya was coming back with the drinks and he did not look happy.
"Kyo! How many times do I have to tell you that that isn't funny?! Gets your hands off my boyfriend you bastard!" Toshiya puts the drinks on the table and slaps Kyo upside the head.
"Jee-ssus Totchi! It wasn't that serious."
"Whadda mean 'Not that serious?!' You were feeling up my Shin-chan!"
"Argh whatever!" says Kyo, pushing Shinya away. "Take your precious little boyfriend then.".......Right. Well this is weird. Didn't see that coming. I grab my drink and gulp it down in one go, big mistake. I forgot who went and got it. Next to Uruha, Toshiya is the only person I know who like to drink strong alcohol. I started choking on it and Toshiya is patting me on the back.
"Here have some water."
I drink it and feel a little better. "Thanks."
"No problem." After I stopped hacking up my lungs, I look up and see that they're all looking at me. Talk about embarrassed. 'Way to go Ruki.'
"So....I'm gonna go now." I said getting up. "It was nice seeing you all again." I get up and make my way down to exit and some one grabs my hand. I'm about to tell the person off but when I look back I see that it's Kyo. 'What the fuck does he want?'
"You ok?" he asked.
"Ummm yea? Is that all you wanted?"
"Kaoru made me come down to see if you were alright. And that I am to escort you home. Says it's too dangerous for a small boy to walk home in the dark." said Kyo, annoyed but also mocking Kaoru.
"That's nice and all but I'm a big boy and I don't need to be walked home."
"Look, I don't to either but he said I could leave if I did so shut up and let’s go." He grabs my arm and we walk out of the club. "Which way to your house?" I point in the direction and we start walking. This is soo awkward. I hate it when it’s this quiet so I attempt to make conversation.
"Soo, how ya been?"
He grunts. I take that as 'Fine' in Kyo language. He never really liked talking. "How did your tour go?"
He grunts again.
"So what was all that back there with Shinya?"
"Nothing. I just like pissing Toshiya off."
"Riight. So are you seeing anybody?"
"No, are you?"
I sighed really dramatically.
"No, we broke up a month ago. He cheated on me with his ex."
"Sorry to hear that." he says but I know he doesn't mean it. He could careless. “So who was it?"
"Who the ex?"
"No baka your boyfriend."
"Oh, Reita."
"Pfft figures." he said coolly. I stayed quiet after that. I knew what he meant by it. When me and Kyo were dating, I would pay more attention to Reita then I did him. He finally got tired of being second to Reita and broke up with me. I didn't mean to do it but he was always so busy with tours and lives and I just wanted some one to talk to. I haven't seen or spoken to him since. He really hurt me. I guess it was the way he did it that really upset me. I don't know if you would call it cheating but I saw him getting ready to have sex with another and there was the name calling and the occasional hit or push and that’s when he broke it off with me. We had been dating up until GazettE debuted in 2005.
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We finally make it to my house and he looks really tired. He must have trouble sleeping again. He's about to leave but I stop him. "Kyo, why don't you stay the night? I know you're tired."
"No thank you." I hit him on the head and drag him in the house. "You’re staying anyway. I don't want you to pass out on you way home so just stay here."
"It's a bit late to be paying me attention don't you think Ruki?" he says sarcastically, rubbing the spot where I hit him.
"Stop bringing that up. It's in the past and that's where it's going to stay. Now, go take a shower. I'll go make you something to eat. I know you aren’t eating like you should." He sighs and takes off his shoes.
"What are you my mother?!" he shouted from the bathroom
"Shut up and go." I tell him. I go in the kitchen and get some rice and fish out. I didn't want make something big that his stomach wouldn't handle. I'm putting the rice in the cooker and grilling the fish when I realize that I left Kyo in the bathroom with no towel or wash cloth to use. I go in the bathroom and see that he has already went in the closet to get it everything that he needed. Seems he remembers where I keep all my stuff. I walk out and back to the kitchen to make sure I don't burn anything and when it's all finished I make his plate. He comes out wrapped in a towel and my mouth just freakin drops. His body is just.....effing...where did he get a body like that?! Those muscles weren't there last time. God that body is just--
"HEY!" he said waving his hand in front of me. "You done eye raping my body? It's cold dammit and I don't have anything to wear."
'Oh yeah. I forgot about that.' I blush and get up to go get him something to sleep in. He gets dressed in my room and comes out and sits down to eat.
"So how long were you and 'No nose' dating before he broke up with you?"
"A year. Why do you want to know anyway?"
"Just wondering."
"Well what about you? When is the last time you had a lover?" He scratches his head then eats some fish.
"I can't really remember. 4 months ago maybe? Couldn't really call it a relationship. We just fucked."
"Well who was it?"
"Nobody. Just some chick."
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He finishes eating and comes in my room looking for blankets and a pillow.
"What are you doing?"
"Ain't it obvious? I’m going to bed."
"Sleep here. I don't feel like cleaning up after you." He rolled his eyes and gets into bed and turns away.
"G'night."
"Night." I turned off the light and get under the covers. I closed my eyes and tried to go to sleep. I kept thinking about the body next to me and it was making me hard, or maybe it was because I haven't gotten laid in a couple of months. I sighed loudly and Kyo punched me in the arm and told me to shut up. Almost immediately after I heard soft snoring. I sighed again but quieter, but cuz I felt like it, not cuz I was scared at getting hit again.
It’s around 4am when I wake up. I have to pee. I feel really warm and it makes me want to stay in bed. That’s when I realize something is holding me. I look back and I see Kyo cuddled up with me and I swear I want to squeal like a girl. He is so adorable. His hair is every which way and he's pouting in his sleep.
~Kyaaaa!!~
Reluctantly I try to wake him up with gentle pushes then I remember who it is I'm trying to wake. I shake up harder and beat him in the head before he actually starts moving.
"Whaaat?!" He says in an annoyed voice.
"Let go. I have to use the bathroom." He growled at me then pushed me out the bed.
"What the hell Kyo!"
"Go use the bathroom." he said snuggling back into the covers. He's lucky he looks adorable right now or I'd beat on him. I go and come back to see Kyo in the same spot looking as cute as ever. Only his head is showing under the fluffy blanket and I want to just eat him up! I get in bed and watch him sleep, but not in a creepy way. Just studying his features. Years of smoking are showing and with his lack of sleep make him look older. I really wish he would stop smoking. He is going to kill himself if he doesn't stop. I forced Reita to stop when he picked up that habit but I think he's started smoking again....I really miss him and once again my mood drops quickly from thinking of him. I need to move on. I wonder what my life would have been like if I was still dating Kyo. Would we have broken up by now or would we be living happily ever after or as happy as you could be with his attitude? I look back him and jump.
"Stop staring at me little creepy." he mumbles. I blush and feel my skin crawl. 'I got caught.' He opens his eyes and looks back at me.
"I wasn't staring."
"Right. So what where you doing?"
"Nuthing."
We stare at each other a little longer then he flicks me on the forehead. "Ow much! What was that for?!" I said rubbing it.
"Just felt like it."
"Well stop."
"What where you thinking so hard about?"
"Nuthing..."
"Ruki...." he says in a threatening voice. When we were dating, he would talk to me like that and I was always scared of him. I didn't want to find what he would do if I didn't tell him what was bothering me. I still don't.
"Reita." I said whispering.
"Why are you still thinking about him for?"
"I still love him Kyo. I went out to forget about him and it didn't work, but after being with some one for that long, I can't help it. I want him back, I miss him."
"We were together for 5 years and you never once tried to get back with me." he said.
"You were broke up with remember? You said a lot of hurtful things to me and I wanted to try and talk to you but I thought you were tired of me or felt you were too good for me since you were so famous so I didn't try. With him I KNOW I can't win so there only one thing left for me to do and that’s forget about him like that."
"Well I have a way for you to forget about him."
"Oh yea? How? You gonna take me on a shopping spree?"
"Uh no. I can't afford the dent in my bank account."
"Then what?" I asked. Only one thing makes me forget my problems and that's shopping. He knows that.
He moves from under the covers and pulls me to him in a deep and passionate kiss. By the time he had pulled away I had truly forgot about Reita and how to breathe. Kyo always had the best kisses and whenever I was feeling bad he would kiss me, the same way he just did.
"Did it work?" he asks with a smug smirk on his face. I nodded my head in a daze. "Good." he said then continued kissing me again. I forgot sex does too.
TBC
A/N: Soooo Whadda think?!
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band: the GazettE
Pairing:ReitaxRuki, ReitaxOFC
Overall Rating: PG-13, R
Disclaimer: They are real people too, or at least that’s what my therapists says. So no I guess I only own them in my mind
Summary: Reita breaks up with Ruki for his ex lover (who cheated on him) leaving Ruki heartbroken and slightly depressed. Determined to move on with his life, Ruki goes out clubbing but catches the attention of someone he was trying to the most to forget.
Warning: Strong language, homosexual relationships, mentions of hetero relationstions
A/N: italics are inner thoughts
chapter two
Ruki's POV
It was really late when I woke up, almost eleven. I sit up and try to shake the sleep from my body as I look around the dark room, my face falling. 'No wonder I can't get that dick out of my mind. All his shit is still here.' I roll my eyes and fall back on the bed. Dammit. I reach out my back pocket for my cell phone and look up his number and call him. I know it’s really late but I need to get him before he makes plans for tomorrow.
On the other end I hear the worst sound ever imaginable. It was Reita and he was cumming, inside of Hiromi, calling her name. I loved hearing Reita call out my name as he reached his peak because I knew it was because of me, now it's because of her and it makes me want to vomit. I let the initial shock and utter disgust pass before answering him back.
"Reita, you need to come and get your stuff out my house." I don't give him time to answer me back because right now I just don't want to hear his voice. I can't keep getting like this. After he gets his stuff I can finally let him go. I don't need him to be happy, if anything he's making me miserable. Yeah that's right! After he comes and gets his stuff I'll start dating again. Only thing is, I don't really have my eyes set on anybody. Let’s see...who else is out there? I can't really think of anybody at the moment. I guess I'll have to go out and look.
TICK TOCK TICK TOCK
...I'm hungry. I guess I should go feed myself...You know what? I think I'll just go get wasted tonight. We don't have practice tomorrow and I've had a shitty day. I get up and go to my closet to find something that screams sex, even though I'm looking for it but I still like to see the looks on people’s faces when I walk into a building. Does that make me conceited? Oh well. Out of all the clothes I have in my closet, I don't know what to where. Can you believe that? Me...not knowing what to wear.
I haven't had time to go shopping for anything new and when we did go out clubbing, Rei never let me wear stuff like that so I stopped buying them. I would put on the older ones but he made me throw those out and besides, they are out of style. Maybe I should call Uru for something. He probably has nothing but short shorts and garters and I just can't pull it off the same way so there's no reason for me to embarrass myself. Maybe I should just stay in. I can get drunk at my own house.
No Taka, you deserve to go out and have a little fun. I guess I'll get dress then. I pick out simple clothes cuz now I don't really feel like going so I won't get all dressed up when I'm in a bad mood. It was the outfit from the Chizuru PV that I 'borrowed.' And yes...that’s my idea of simple clothes. Like you'll really see me in jeans and a plain T-shirt...please. Anyway I go in the bathroom to take my shower and I see more of Reita's stuff.
He has like he shampoo and cologne and stuff in here. I want to smell it but that’s just creepy. Like I need to sniff his stuff....not that kind of stuff either....perverts. Seeing it kinda pisses me off though cuz I brought it for him like...2 days before he broke up with me. I rolled my eyes and turned on the water for my shower and set it to my preferred temperature.
When it heats up I get undressed and get in. It was really quiet in here now. My apartment I mean. Usually there would be the noise of a soccer game playing or Reita playing his bass but the only sound right now is the water and my shallow breathing. I don't like this. Being alone makes my mind wander and that’s never a good thing. I start to wash and get ready for my night out. After I get dressed I start on my on hair. I don't know what to do to it so I get lazy and flip it like in the PV. I look in the mirror and I'm pleased with the results. I threw on some make up, grab the fedora and walk out the door.
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So right now I'm sitting in the VIP and BORED OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND!! There is nobody here. I knew I should have stayed home. I mean yeah there are some hot guys here but none that compare to Reita. I really wish I could hate him. I REALLY REALLY wish I could stop thinking about him. This shit isn't healthy and I absolutely REFUSE to be the devastated 'girlfriend' that gains like 40 pounds in chocolate and ice cream because of that bastard! I take a shot of the vodka that I had forgotten and scrunch my face up at the strong taste. I STILL don't see how Uru does it. I shake off the feel and get up to leave. On my way out I have cut through the other VIP booth and as I'm about to leave I hear someone yell out 'Hey Kyo! Isn't that your ex-boyfriend?' WHAT THE EFF?!?!? That voice sounds very familiar and before I have a chance to figure out who it is, the person comes over and hugs me. "Hey Ruki! Fancy meeting you here."
'Toshiya.' I should have known...and ran...fast.
"Come over and have a drink with us." he says.
"I'm sorry Toshiya but I really have to go. I have early practice in the morning."
"C'mon just one drink? Please?" he pouts a little. Even though they ditched the visual kei a long time ago, Toshiya can still pull of that irresistible pout. Crap.
"Fine. One drink." He claps his hands and pulls me over to their table. "Everyone Ruki will be joining us for a while. Is that ok?" he asks. I look up and see that everyone is staring at me with bored expressions. I feel kinda insulted. I'm Ruki bitch. Be happy I decided to grace you with my presence. I'm just kidding..I'm not that conceited. Kaoru shrugs his shoulders. "Sure." Well this awkward. I haven't been around these guys for years! The last time I remember seeing them was like in...I don't know 03' I wasn't even nowhere near being famous and they had already taken Japan by storm...well the rock side of Japan. We really never talked. I was only around them cuz of Kyo. If I did talk to them it was just Toshiya, everyone else tried to avoid me, or at least seemed to. But the main reason I didn't talk was because of Kaoru. I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm scared of the man. He just looks...agnry, like I would be terrified of having sex with him.
"Can we just order the drink so I can go home please?" I asked.
"Sure Ruki. Why do want to leave so bad?"
"No reason. I just want to go home."
I'm waiting for Toshiya to come back with the drinks that he ordered for everyone and I feel sooo uncomfortable right now. I didn't think I would be looking at Kyo unless it was on the cover of a magazine or TV. As much I don't want to, I look in his direction and I see that he has the most bored expression on his face. He's just....blah. I also see that the rest of the band members are kinda bored too. Kaoru and Die are talking about something...I don't want to know either. I come to know his perverted ways. That and Kaoru looks like he's about to knock the shit out of him. I continue to look around and I see that Shinya isn't here. "Hey where's Shinya?"
"Bathroom." That was Kyo. No latter had he said that Shinya comes back up and sits next Kyo. Now Kyo perks up a little. He starts to rub on Shinya's leg and kiss him on the neck, which I found really weird cuz Kyo is NOT the type to show affection. Or any emotion besides depression, hate and anger for that matter. "Stop it Kyo! Toshiya will get mad again." say Shinya. 'What does Toshiya has to do with anything.'
"So I don't care and neither should you."
"Kyo I mean it. Stop!" Luckily for Shinya, Toshiya was coming back with the drinks and he did not look happy.
"Kyo! How many times do I have to tell you that that isn't funny?! Gets your hands off my boyfriend you bastard!" Toshiya puts the drinks on the table and slaps Kyo upside the head.
"Jee-ssus Totchi! It wasn't that serious."
"Whadda mean 'Not that serious?!' You were feeling up my Shin-chan!"
"Argh whatever!" says Kyo, pushing Shinya away. "Take your precious little boyfriend then.".......Right. Well this is weird. Didn't see that coming. I grab my drink and gulp it down in one go, big mistake. I forgot who went and got it. Next to Uruha, Toshiya is the only person I know who like to drink strong alcohol. I started choking on it and Toshiya is patting me on the back.
"Here have some water."
I drink it and feel a little better. "Thanks."
"No problem." After I stopped hacking up my lungs, I look up and see that they're all looking at me. Talk about embarrassed. 'Way to go Ruki.'
"So....I'm gonna go now." I said getting up. "It was nice seeing you all again." I get up and make my way down to exit and some one grabs my hand. I'm about to tell the person off but when I look back I see that it's Kyo. 'What the fuck does he want?'
"You ok?" he asked.
"Ummm yea? Is that all you wanted?"
"Kaoru made me come down to see if you were alright. And that I am to escort you home. Says it's too dangerous for a small boy to walk home in the dark." said Kyo, annoyed but also mocking Kaoru.
"That's nice and all but I'm a big boy and I don't need to be walked home."
"Look, I don't to either but he said I could leave if I did so shut up and let’s go." He grabs my arm and we walk out of the club. "Which way to your house?" I point in the direction and we start walking. This is soo awkward. I hate it when it’s this quiet so I attempt to make conversation.
"Soo, how ya been?"
He grunts. I take that as 'Fine' in Kyo language. He never really liked talking. "How did your tour go?"
He grunts again.
"So what was all that back there with Shinya?"
"Nothing. I just like pissing Toshiya off."
"Riight. So are you seeing anybody?"
"No, are you?"
I sighed really dramatically.
"No, we broke up a month ago. He cheated on me with his ex."
"Sorry to hear that." he says but I know he doesn't mean it. He could careless. “So who was it?"
"Who the ex?"
"No baka your boyfriend."
"Oh, Reita."
"Pfft figures." he said coolly. I stayed quiet after that. I knew what he meant by it. When me and Kyo were dating, I would pay more attention to Reita then I did him. He finally got tired of being second to Reita and broke up with me. I didn't mean to do it but he was always so busy with tours and lives and I just wanted some one to talk to. I haven't seen or spoken to him since. He really hurt me. I guess it was the way he did it that really upset me. I don't know if you would call it cheating but I saw him getting ready to have sex with another and there was the name calling and the occasional hit or push and that’s when he broke it off with me. We had been dating up until GazettE debuted in 2005.
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We finally make it to my house and he looks really tired. He must have trouble sleeping again. He's about to leave but I stop him. "Kyo, why don't you stay the night? I know you're tired."
"No thank you." I hit him on the head and drag him in the house. "You’re staying anyway. I don't want you to pass out on you way home so just stay here."
"It's a bit late to be paying me attention don't you think Ruki?" he says sarcastically, rubbing the spot where I hit him.
"Stop bringing that up. It's in the past and that's where it's going to stay. Now, go take a shower. I'll go make you something to eat. I know you aren’t eating like you should." He sighs and takes off his shoes.
"What are you my mother?!" he shouted from the bathroom
"Shut up and go." I tell him. I go in the kitchen and get some rice and fish out. I didn't want make something big that his stomach wouldn't handle. I'm putting the rice in the cooker and grilling the fish when I realize that I left Kyo in the bathroom with no towel or wash cloth to use. I go in the bathroom and see that he has already went in the closet to get it everything that he needed. Seems he remembers where I keep all my stuff. I walk out and back to the kitchen to make sure I don't burn anything and when it's all finished I make his plate. He comes out wrapped in a towel and my mouth just freakin drops. His body is just.....effing...where did he get a body like that?! Those muscles weren't there last time. God that body is just--
"HEY!" he said waving his hand in front of me. "You done eye raping my body? It's cold dammit and I don't have anything to wear."
'Oh yeah. I forgot about that.' I blush and get up to go get him something to sleep in. He gets dressed in my room and comes out and sits down to eat.
"So how long were you and 'No nose' dating before he broke up with you?"
"A year. Why do you want to know anyway?"
"Just wondering."
"Well what about you? When is the last time you had a lover?" He scratches his head then eats some fish.
"I can't really remember. 4 months ago maybe? Couldn't really call it a relationship. We just fucked."
"Well who was it?"
"Nobody. Just some chick."
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He finishes eating and comes in my room looking for blankets and a pillow.
"What are you doing?"
"Ain't it obvious? I’m going to bed."
"Sleep here. I don't feel like cleaning up after you." He rolled his eyes and gets into bed and turns away.
"G'night."
"Night." I turned off the light and get under the covers. I closed my eyes and tried to go to sleep. I kept thinking about the body next to me and it was making me hard, or maybe it was because I haven't gotten laid in a couple of months. I sighed loudly and Kyo punched me in the arm and told me to shut up. Almost immediately after I heard soft snoring. I sighed again but quieter, but cuz I felt like it, not cuz I was scared at getting hit again.
It’s around 4am when I wake up. I have to pee. I feel really warm and it makes me want to stay in bed. That’s when I realize something is holding me. I look back and I see Kyo cuddled up with me and I swear I want to squeal like a girl. He is so adorable. His hair is every which way and he's pouting in his sleep.
~Kyaaaa!!~
Reluctantly I try to wake him up with gentle pushes then I remember who it is I'm trying to wake. I shake up harder and beat him in the head before he actually starts moving.
"Whaaat?!" He says in an annoyed voice.
"Let go. I have to use the bathroom." He growled at me then pushed me out the bed.
"What the hell Kyo!"
"Go use the bathroom." he said snuggling back into the covers. He's lucky he looks adorable right now or I'd beat on him. I go and come back to see Kyo in the same spot looking as cute as ever. Only his head is showing under the fluffy blanket and I want to just eat him up! I get in bed and watch him sleep, but not in a creepy way. Just studying his features. Years of smoking are showing and with his lack of sleep make him look older. I really wish he would stop smoking. He is going to kill himself if he doesn't stop. I forced Reita to stop when he picked up that habit but I think he's started smoking again....I really miss him and once again my mood drops quickly from thinking of him. I need to move on. I wonder what my life would have been like if I was still dating Kyo. Would we have broken up by now or would we be living happily ever after or as happy as you could be with his attitude? I look back him and jump.
"Stop staring at me little creepy." he mumbles. I blush and feel my skin crawl. 'I got caught.' He opens his eyes and looks back at me.
"I wasn't staring."
"Right. So what where you doing?"
"Nuthing."
We stare at each other a little longer then he flicks me on the forehead. "Ow much! What was that for?!" I said rubbing it.
"Just felt like it."
"Well stop."
"What where you thinking so hard about?"
"Nuthing..."
"Ruki...." he says in a threatening voice. When we were dating, he would talk to me like that and I was always scared of him. I didn't want to find what he would do if I didn't tell him what was bothering me. I still don't.
"Reita." I said whispering.
"Why are you still thinking about him for?"
"I still love him Kyo. I went out to forget about him and it didn't work, but after being with some one for that long, I can't help it. I want him back, I miss him."
"We were together for 5 years and you never once tried to get back with me." he said.
"You were broke up with remember? You said a lot of hurtful things to me and I wanted to try and talk to you but I thought you were tired of me or felt you were too good for me since you were so famous so I didn't try. With him I KNOW I can't win so there only one thing left for me to do and that’s forget about him like that."
"Well I have a way for you to forget about him."
"Oh yea? How? You gonna take me on a shopping spree?"
"Uh no. I can't afford the dent in my bank account."
"Then what?" I asked. Only one thing makes me forget my problems and that's shopping. He knows that.
He moves from under the covers and pulls me to him in a deep and passionate kiss. By the time he had pulled away I had truly forgot about Reita and how to breathe. Kyo always had the best kisses and whenever I was feeling bad he would kiss me, the same way he just did.
"Did it work?" he asks with a smug smirk on his face. I nodded my head in a daze. "Good." he said then continued kissing me again. I forgot sex does too.
TBC
A/N: Soooo Whadda think?!