Hysterical crying is painful
My last post was speaking too soon. I was feeling too happy this week.
I'm not allowed to feel happy. Must be the law or something.
My hard drive died today. Again.
I dropped it on the hard floor in the living room and now it won't start.
Dad's put it in the freezer in a last ditch effort to save the data on it... but I don't think it'll work.
Been crying for at least the last 2 hrs. There was lots of screaming involved too.
It's the sheer volume of the stuff I've lost bundled in with the fact that it was so avoidable.
I only brought my hard drive out into the living room because my room was too hot and I wanted to sort through my new music in front of the air con.
I dropped it. It was an accident, but I still dropped it.
Been screaming at myself, hitting myself, calling myself an idiot and crying because I'm crying and because I'm so stupid and I shouldn't be crying over something like this. But I can't help it.
The news is now on.
With what's happened in Queensland this last month with the floods and now the cyclone, I really shouldn't be so upset. I haven't really lost anything important, my photos are backed up at least... but still, I can't help crying and feeling so numb like someone has died.
Call me stupid and an idiot and whatever you want.
Because I am.
I think I hate myself right now.
And no one seems to care about me at all. Honestly would anyone care at all if I died. I doubt it
I'm not allowed to feel happy. Must be the law or something.
My hard drive died today. Again.
I dropped it on the hard floor in the living room and now it won't start.
Dad's put it in the freezer in a last ditch effort to save the data on it... but I don't think it'll work.
Been crying for at least the last 2 hrs. There was lots of screaming involved too.
It's the sheer volume of the stuff I've lost bundled in with the fact that it was so avoidable.
I only brought my hard drive out into the living room because my room was too hot and I wanted to sort through my new music in front of the air con.
I dropped it. It was an accident, but I still dropped it.
Been screaming at myself, hitting myself, calling myself an idiot and crying because I'm crying and because I'm so stupid and I shouldn't be crying over something like this. But I can't help it.
The news is now on.
With what's happened in Queensland this last month with the floods and now the cyclone, I really shouldn't be so upset. I haven't really lost anything important, my photos are backed up at least... but still, I can't help crying and feeling so numb like someone has died.
Call me stupid and an idiot and whatever you want.
Because I am.
I think I hate myself right now.
And no one seems to care about me at all. Honestly would anyone care at all if I died. I doubt it