I was nervous and not sleeping before the election worrying the prop. 8 would pass. It did. I assumed that after a few days (maybe a week), I could put my life back together and move on. I have become functional, but I have not become well. I had a couple of hours of driving to focus on my thoughts (both a good and a bad thing).
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Add to that that both academia and the arts tend to be (despite all their rhetoric to the contrary) very cut throat, two-faced, back stabbing industries, I'm just never sure. The politics between teachers and artists and students means you can never be quite sure of peoples opinions. It is only the unambitious ones (like me) who have the freedom to express what they truly feel. I only withhold my opinion if I think it would be damaging (which means most of my co-workers know where I stand on anything, because if I am silent it means that my opinion could get me in very hot water politically)
I do understand (and see) gender discrimination daily. We have a mucky muck* at the school who will latch onto, and support the most idiotic ideas from a man, and instantly reject really good ideas from a woman. I try to avoid dealing with this mucky muck, and yet, I am occasionally sent in because the mucky muck will listen to me. Which means I am (very improperly) getting credit for brilliant ideas that are not mine. (Although I try to make sure everyone below the mucky muck knows where the idea came from and that I was merely a humble messenger.)
*= someone who is high enough ranking to make my job miserable if they found I was writing about them
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Thank you for calling me on over arching statements that are very disrespectful to my friends. It is too easy (as is evidenced by the the public debate on Prop 8) to make broad statements that are only fractionally true and assert them as whole truths. Despite my anger, rage and fear about my rights in the future, I really really don't want to sink to that level.
Thank you.
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2) I can understand this, having spent most of a summer in Bakersfield (which strikes me as politically similar to Fresno). Arrrgh. Yes, I have a 'male' job (and had a different 'male' job before this one). No, that doesn't automagically make me a lesbian. You know they don't get it when they think your JOB defines your sexual preference!
3) And now we know why (in addition to lacking the requisite talents), I am not an artist or a teacher. You've just made a good point though and I'll be enquiring of my 'focus group' (several RN friends) as to how much politics I may have to deal with at the RN level in a hospital setting, because intense office politics is something at which I am full of fail.
4) Wow, that's bad. Though I must admit there have been times I've been sent to present specific lighting options because 'interior designers' will often take that advice better from a female than a male. This is sort of a form of gender issue (they don't want to 'cave' to the electrician, who is male) but it's somehow OK to agree with me (another female who should be interested in 'decor', when honestly as long as it's clean I mostly could not care less).
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I want you to know I am very sincerely on your side. Quite a lot of we straight but not narrows are, though certainly not as great a percentage are willing to take the time and get out there to peacefully protest (I did!) and contribute to the cause as fits their ability.
But most of all, I want this for you and J, because you are a piece of my life, and have a special place in my heart.
Hugs
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