ok so I'm leaving now?
Numerous things are keeping me from leaving. So once again I'm saying FOR SURE I'm leaving tomorrow. Friday instead of Tuesday. I seriously was gonna leave this morning but I ended up going to Round Rock and getting hit by a giant shit fuck hail/rainstorm so I didn't wanna drive all the way back to Riverside. Especially when people drive like ASSHOLES when the weather is bad. More then usual. I dunno why, fuckin idiots.
But I chilled with my Laura for a few hours and went on a crazy adventure in the minivan. Then we ate fried chicken and gossiped for a bit. I love Laura, I'm not on her top 8 (4, 24, 62, whatever the fuck) anymore but she's still one of my favoritest ladies. Once again I still planned on leaving at 9AM this morning. I swung by Bens at around 10 and ended up drinking some whiskey then beer then whiskey (no I didn't puke! yay!) and it was still really stormy out so I just crashed there. Then when we were in bed fuckin Brian brings fuckin 15 people over at 3:30 in the morning. That was a bit crazy. So I drank some more beers and I think I went to bed at about 5ish? My alarm went off at 8 but Ben had just crawled into bed and was like "Noooo, the weather is TERRIBLE and the taffic will be terrible it's a TERRIBLE time for you to leave babe." ha, basically cuz he wanted cuddles. I can't turn down cuddles. Especially Ben cuddles. I know I've been all weird emotionally about him forever but he's still my Ben. Always will be. Even if I'm disgusted with him for being a smelly slobby boy
We chilled today and got Thundercloud and watched Survivor then I came back to Jesse's and took a mothafuckin shower cuz I reeked of smoke and once again didn't shower or brush my teeth or wash up cuz all my shit was down here. But he helped me get my bed piece in my car and gave hugs and love and I only cried for about 5 minutes driving away from him once again. It killed me when he looked at me and pointed to his eye, crossed his heart, then pointed to me. (I <3 you). Good thing I'm on xanax now so I gobbled that up as soon as I got here to help with me being all emotional and ballistic. Thank you Xanax <3
So I've got my map and am planning my routte for tomorrow morning. I'm gonna be hardcore and just drive all the way at once. It's a comfortable 2 day drive so I think I can handle an uncomfortable 16 hour drive. Maybe it'll be faster. I'll load up on energy drinks and maybe stop at truckstops to get some speed from truckers or whatever good shit they've got these days!
(plz don't believe everything I say fools)
Oh yeah some of Janette's angry messican friends were here when I got here and made me feel uncomfortable cuz I was like "Hi! I'm Renee!" and they didn't even look at me and kinda mumbled "sup" or something. It's tough being white these days.
So whenever Jesse gets home I'll have some BFF talk with him cuz he's the shit and I love him bunches. He's rad for letting me stay here this long and the whole mi casa su casa.
I've typed enough for one day. Bye loves. Keep me in your thoughs and wish me luck for my long journey ahead!!