fuck shit damnit motherfucker assfuck assface dumbass fuck fucking asshole...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
after 40 pieces of gum and a shit load of chocolate i realize i'm an emotional train wrech (not emo though lol). seriously. i feel like i'm at my wits end with everything. i don't even feel like getting out of bed. i don't think i'm depressed or anything i just feel burnt out. burnt out with trying to make everything somewhat right.
Its like the candle thats wick has been burnt off yet various people try to light it up again, but its wasted and tired. i got a party to pull together, the mission trip, running camp to get ready for, and here i am...walking around like i'm 1/2 dead.
And here i am waiting to be brought to life. And i'm too fucking lazy and burnt out to do anything about it. Life is amazing, beautiful. I've seen it before...i used to have so much of it in me...but now its like i'm either sleeping...talking on the phone (well not too much actually talked to my friend Alex Rosenthal for a good long time today though)...or wasting my life somehow. Ah. its all irrating.
Why am i like this?
Who am i so dead?
What caused this?
And how can i stop being like this?
I'm not empty- i'm just not all there...
And its driving me out of my fucking mind.
Leave one. please.
xoxo,
Gina
NOTE: joe. thank you so much.
NOTE: lauren. that sleep over b4 my party? i think i need one of those. i miss you so much...i'm going to call you gurl!!!! lol...remember to always "drink it like its red". jenny. you too. i miss you. i havent seen you the longest while.
Its like the candle thats wick has been burnt off yet various people try to light it up again, but its wasted and tired. i got a party to pull together, the mission trip, running camp to get ready for, and here i am...walking around like i'm 1/2 dead.
And here i am waiting to be brought to life. And i'm too fucking lazy and burnt out to do anything about it. Life is amazing, beautiful. I've seen it before...i used to have so much of it in me...but now its like i'm either sleeping...talking on the phone (well not too much actually talked to my friend Alex Rosenthal for a good long time today though)...or wasting my life somehow. Ah. its all irrating.
Why am i like this?
Who am i so dead?
What caused this?
And how can i stop being like this?
I'm not empty- i'm just not all there...
And its driving me out of my fucking mind.
Leave one. please.
xoxo,
Gina
NOTE: joe. thank you so much.
NOTE: lauren. that sleep over b4 my party? i think i need one of those. i miss you so much...i'm going to call you gurl!!!! lol...remember to always "drink it like its red". jenny. you too. i miss you. i havent seen you the longest while.