Oooh Life!
Soo I have been living at Sissy's house the past few days. My cousin Jonathan is in the hospital because the tip of his appendix burst when we were up north at my family reunion. Sooo they are draining the posion out of him, and I don't think they are taking his appendix out, but keeping him for a couple of days. My cuz and I don't really get along very well, but I wouldn't wish that pain on him. I just don't like seeing people in pain. Especially my family. I wanted to cry when I saw him, b/c one I don't do well w/ hospitals, and two just seeing him like that was not fun. I just kept remembering seeing my aunt Melissa in the hospital many years ago when she had cancer. She was just in so much pain, and it just brings back a lot of emotions. He will be fine of course, but it shows pain is a good thing and is a red flag to something is wrong. Ugh, I so could kill the people at the Valpo hospital. They said it was just gas...umm no you retards it was posion in his body. He could have died, I mean what if it was his whole appendix? He would be dead. Death is scary, I'm personally not afraid of it, but when others do, it just freaks me out. When I see good people die, and I mean really good people it justs makes me disgusted. I always just think, dude, come on. I would gladly go in some of people's places. They actually have something to offer the world. Anywho, I think I am going back up there when dad gets off of work. At least I am good at making people laugh, I got to yesterday, which was good. I live by little things...
Well in some other news with my life, I think I might be getting a friendship back. I was really close to this guy Garrett at school, but then drama and his g/f shit. I'm sure I wrote about it. Anywho, he randomly chatted with my other good friend Mere, and she got him to basically admit that he misses me, and thinks about what happened everyday, and he knew he was a jerk and such. Like I know I could have done some things differently, but I tried so hard to make him happy, and have things get better. Anywho, I miss him a lot, and through my Gilbert facebook, since he deleted me off his friends, we are kinda having communication, through bumper stickers, but it is a start, and well that is how he is.
Oh, and with school, I might not go back, and my freakind aid advisor forgot that I told her my parents' loan was denied and that she was going to send me another award letter. Soo I have been waiting for that, and she was never going to send it. Luckily I e-mailed her and she said she is going to now. Well I hope so. Ugh life, ups and downs...it sucks, because I just want a simple life. Nothing big, just an education, a job, and a life. I don't want to be famous or crazy rich, just enough to be happy and live well, and not to worry if I will be okay. Money can't buy happiness, but it can bring depression and saddness...I'm living on, and staying postive. Things will be okay no matter what. I am willing to work through it all, and maybe I will find my true happiness...I hope otherwise what is the point.
Well in some other news with my life, I think I might be getting a friendship back. I was really close to this guy Garrett at school, but then drama and his g/f shit. I'm sure I wrote about it. Anywho, he randomly chatted with my other good friend Mere, and she got him to basically admit that he misses me, and thinks about what happened everyday, and he knew he was a jerk and such. Like I know I could have done some things differently, but I tried so hard to make him happy, and have things get better. Anywho, I miss him a lot, and through my Gilbert facebook, since he deleted me off his friends, we are kinda having communication, through bumper stickers, but it is a start, and well that is how he is.
Oh, and with school, I might not go back, and my freakind aid advisor forgot that I told her my parents' loan was denied and that she was going to send me another award letter. Soo I have been waiting for that, and she was never going to send it. Luckily I e-mailed her and she said she is going to now. Well I hope so. Ugh life, ups and downs...it sucks, because I just want a simple life. Nothing big, just an education, a job, and a life. I don't want to be famous or crazy rich, just enough to be happy and live well, and not to worry if I will be okay. Money can't buy happiness, but it can bring depression and saddness...I'm living on, and staying postive. Things will be okay no matter what. I am willing to work through it all, and maybe I will find my true happiness...I hope otherwise what is the point.