AND SO ON..........

[crazysk8rchica]

So after a few weeks of trying to make myself happy, and it not working as well as i like. It clicked. I am not unhappy. I just dont care enough about my self. So while thinking about this whole jeff, meghan, boyfriend bullshit, i realized its all a ig game on his part. And i say this now and mean it. I AM DONE! I dont wanna play his petty games. I dont wanna deal with his lies and with-holdings. I dont care about it, he does not care.....he never really did. And now i dont care anymore. I still have friends, i still have myself, i still have my looks and inall i am a better person. I know what i want, and i am thinking.....its NOT him. I sent him an e-mail last week in regards to the email he had sent me....and i still have not read it. Tell ya the truth i dont plan on reading it. I dont hate jeff, i dont think he should die, or anything like that. i am not going to call him and be like "i hate you".Infact i think after this all blows over if its ok witrh him....we might try to be friends. I dont know, we shall see in later days. All i got for sure is time....and who knows how much that is.

ps..... i think i cant wait till monster trucks with erica, jesska, and a few other people (that for the reason of friendships that might be broken) that shall not be named.

If you would like to talk gimme a call.

i have been a little to busy to get online.....with you know who, and a few others. i'll try to get on more....