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i dont know where im going with this but whatever. Im just really not feeling too confident about anything right now. Like for school i know im gonna do fairly well, i mean ill do my best and thats all i can really ask of myself. But still there is an underlying motif of dread mixed up with everything. Maybe its school, maybe its because i have to come to grips with things i really dont want to come to grips with. Maybe its because i have to accept what my brain is saying when every bone, nerve, impulse, twitch, gut instinct contradicts everything that my brain says. The worst feeling in the world is when you're told something is wrong when you know that what you feel, to the very core of your own existence, is right.