Wishing on a far away Rainbow
Fail
And i cant stay in this place.
it haunts me with every breath.
And i am fighting the pain
that you left me with.
If i fall to my knees
you laugh with all your friends.
Seems to me,
im taking my last breath.
Because im dying again,
and you love to see me fail. . .
Happy to see me dead
You stand there with a grin
puching me back again.
You laugh at me,
as i cry.
You start to yell
when i start to bleed on your white carpet.
You turn around, but first give me a glare.
the fire from that look, burnt me to a crisp.
You see my ashes,
and you dont care.
deadWish
You said i did something that i didnt.
You said you'd love me always
But look now.
And look how.
Now you deny all the lies.
How you killed my soul.
You always said you'd dry my tears.
You always said you'd be here.
But look now.
And look how.
Now you create my fears.
How you left me in need.
You promised never to marry a man we didnt all like.
You did it dispite my feelings.
But look now.
And look how.
Now you sit and laugh at me.
How can you live with the past you left with me.
You said, i could tell you everything.
You said it, but you didnt fall through.
But look now.
And look how.
Now you push my feelings aside. not like you cared any way.
How can you sleep at night, knowing you left your six year old child?
look at me now. All Grgown up. Time Flies when your back is turned.
You say i grew up so quickly, yeah i guess i would if you didnt see it.
feeling pain still, but anyone would too, if they had to go through.
~-~Trust~-~
A little child puts all their trust
Into his parents.
The little child feels she must
And they know if they lie, she'll bare it.
As she grows,
The truth is hidden more everyday.
But she doesnt know.
Her innocence so sweet, not knowing what she hid with what they would say.
Putting in all her TRUST ,
Till the day she they were caught in a lie.
All this time is gone, cant bring it back broke my final crust.
That was the changing point, the "me" left, like they did without saying good-bye.
You taught me to run,
Hide all my feelings.
You taught me how to loose my fun.
Throw everything away, as they gave me a sheild.
Look at me now.
Your daughter hanging from a tree.
A Tree of Lies.
A Tree of Hurt.
A Tree of Tears that didnt get wipped away.
You say i lied to you.
When you lied to me.
_-_Hate me i see. _-_
Dont just sit there and ask "Why?!"
As you watch me cry!!
I saw the look in your eye.
How could i forget.
Eyebrows raised. Mouth to one side. No mercy in your eye. As i stood there
and cried. You showed me hate.
How else am i to feel from you.
When i come with tears on my face
And you push me away.
How else am i to feel
When i tell you the truth
And you show me hate?
Joy?
Happiness?
Compassion?
. . . . No, i feel
Deep
Sorrowful
Pain....
Mother, my mother. Forever since i was little i served thee.
I bowed to thine's feet, and wash away thy's pain.
When i turned ten, thy said i could brake free.
And free i did brake.
But thy wipped me back to thy's feet?
Not understanding, i washed.
And one day, i doubted thy's power.
"Master, why did thee wipe me back, when thou said 'goest free'?"
"dont back talk me slave! have thou no faith in thine Master?! I brought thy
back to punish thee for all the things i have done."
Sitting and washing thine's feet with my tears and pain.
<- - - - - This is me.
<- - - - this is what i used to be.