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BAH this fuckin sucks. I hate it when I get these types of feelings in me. Where all I feel like doing is finding a nice dark corner in my room and just cry. But I know I'm better than that and I try to stay strong and try not to show weakness at all but even then its hard. I'm still on this damn warning order to Iraq the last few times i was on this the warning order only last maybe a few days before our company was taken off of it. Its been almost 2 weeks now and so far we're still on it. So it's worrying the shit out of me that my deployment to iraq might finally be here. I knew it was just a matter of time before we were to get it but right now everything is going extremely well for me and now it seems like everything is just going to be taken away because i'll have to go over seas.
The other thing that has been stressing me out lately is what happened the other day. The other day I get a phone call from my buddies parents. And my friend is over in iraq right now and this is someone who've i pretty much grew up with and I consider him to be like a brother to me. What sucks the most though is that nobody has heard from him in the past 2 months. I know he has an important mission to do over there but still absolutely NO ONE has heard from him in the past 2 months. His parents or none of his friends haven't heard a thing, not a phone call, email, or a letter just not a damn thing. And now this is just worrying me all to hell. I don't want to think the worst might of happened to him but I just can't help it at all. But in my heart i know nothing bad has happened to him over there. Ugh im starting to wonder what else can go wrong right now.
The other thing that has been stressing me out lately is what happened the other day. The other day I get a phone call from my buddies parents. And my friend is over in iraq right now and this is someone who've i pretty much grew up with and I consider him to be like a brother to me. What sucks the most though is that nobody has heard from him in the past 2 months. I know he has an important mission to do over there but still absolutely NO ONE has heard from him in the past 2 months. His parents or none of his friends haven't heard a thing, not a phone call, email, or a letter just not a damn thing. And now this is just worrying me all to hell. I don't want to think the worst might of happened to him but I just can't help it at all. But in my heart i know nothing bad has happened to him over there. Ugh im starting to wonder what else can go wrong right now.