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"being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up,
these are the best days of our lives
the only thing that matters is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right." - the ataris
so, with that being said .. is it better to live in the moment and do what comes along. everyone says you should have fun in college. live on the edge, if you have a huge test but the best party ever is the night before fuck the test and go out ...
"You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink till sunrise. The work never ends, but college does...."
but does that really pay off? because in the end your future depends on what is going on now. i'm not getting off to a good start this year. i just don't know these days. i know what i want to do but i am having so many doubts. i don't know if i can do it. i feel like i'm missing out on my social life, which is why i quit my job, yet ... i need to do better in school. here i am going to penn state this weekend and next week i have so much stuff to do, things that i NEED to do amazing on. so what do i do? cram the night before? it's not getting me anywhere.
and when everything works itself into place i won't be this stressed anymore. but i don't want to stress myself out now. so do i not have fun? i'm just really feeling down these past few days. i realized that this is the real life, it's not high school anymore. it's not freshmen year. classes are harder. i need to get my shit together. but do i miss out on everything else while this is going on?
i need to see a counselor
these are the best days of our lives
the only thing that matters is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right." - the ataris
so, with that being said .. is it better to live in the moment and do what comes along. everyone says you should have fun in college. live on the edge, if you have a huge test but the best party ever is the night before fuck the test and go out ...
"You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink till sunrise. The work never ends, but college does...."
but does that really pay off? because in the end your future depends on what is going on now. i'm not getting off to a good start this year. i just don't know these days. i know what i want to do but i am having so many doubts. i don't know if i can do it. i feel like i'm missing out on my social life, which is why i quit my job, yet ... i need to do better in school. here i am going to penn state this weekend and next week i have so much stuff to do, things that i NEED to do amazing on. so what do i do? cram the night before? it's not getting me anywhere.
and when everything works itself into place i won't be this stressed anymore. but i don't want to stress myself out now. so do i not have fun? i'm just really feeling down these past few days. i realized that this is the real life, it's not high school anymore. it's not freshmen year. classes are harder. i need to get my shit together. but do i miss out on everything else while this is going on?
i need to see a counselor