I'm confused
I'm really confused....
I don't understand why I do certain things. I don't understand why certaing people do certain things....it just makes no sense.
Today, I almost got into a fight with Adam because Amina told me that he was rubbing on her legs and asked her to hold her hand to see what it felt like again....that PISSED me off. I walked into Beans room and saw Amina taking a shotgun from Bean...:/ It really it hurt time REALLY fuckin hurt. Then I said something to her...I forget what, then I turned to Adam told him he was an asshole and a piece of shit..I walked out of the room and things got a little heated. I was really pissed off and soooo close to hittin his ass. I'm tired of bitches tryin to start shit just to start shit. I hate to see Amina hang out with him because he just uses her, always has, and always will...she doesn't see that nor understand it and it hurts.
Saturday night was cool, I fucked up once again, don't know why I did it but I did. :/ really HAVE to stop but nobody is here to help me and thats why I confide in Amina...I see her do it and I go along with it :/ Its stupid..>I have no self-control. I don't know what I need to do...It's getting to be too much.
I just want Amina there for me and I want Amina to do better for herself...she can do much better she doesn't need weed and neither do I. I started smoking weed and I've caused sooo much shit to myself, and I don't want that to happen to her. I really want to try hard to make us work but I don't see it happening...I need her here for me through this hard time in my life, but it seems like I must do it alone :/ I don't know if I can though, once I do it will probably be too late.
I wish I could understand how Amina is feeling :/
I don't understand why I do certain things. I don't understand why certaing people do certain things....it just makes no sense.
Today, I almost got into a fight with Adam because Amina told me that he was rubbing on her legs and asked her to hold her hand to see what it felt like again....that PISSED me off. I walked into Beans room and saw Amina taking a shotgun from Bean...:/ It really it hurt time REALLY fuckin hurt. Then I said something to her...I forget what, then I turned to Adam told him he was an asshole and a piece of shit..I walked out of the room and things got a little heated. I was really pissed off and soooo close to hittin his ass. I'm tired of bitches tryin to start shit just to start shit. I hate to see Amina hang out with him because he just uses her, always has, and always will...she doesn't see that nor understand it and it hurts.
Saturday night was cool, I fucked up once again, don't know why I did it but I did. :/ really HAVE to stop but nobody is here to help me and thats why I confide in Amina...I see her do it and I go along with it :/ Its stupid..>I have no self-control. I don't know what I need to do...It's getting to be too much.
I just want Amina there for me and I want Amina to do better for herself...she can do much better she doesn't need weed and neither do I. I started smoking weed and I've caused sooo much shit to myself, and I don't want that to happen to her. I really want to try hard to make us work but I don't see it happening...I need her here for me through this hard time in my life, but it seems like I must do it alone :/ I don't know if I can though, once I do it will probably be too late.
I wish I could understand how Amina is feeling :/