posting before i forget: kimberly
Damn, I've been in quite a slump lately. I think it's because I've been kept to myself and 'done my own thing' lately. It doesn't help that I constantly feel reminded of that incident that so damaged me inside. Shiet, I'm still struggling with the frustration and hurt from it. Anyhow, I wanted to post a story before I forget.
After Jiu-Jitsu, I ran like I usually would to the Bart station to catch the train back home. I run because there's a wealth of people smoking, and I hate second-hand smoke because it really triggers my asthma bad. I also run because it's pretty late and I'm trying to catch a certain train home. On my way, this lady with very little teeth approached me asking me for money. I told her as I was running that I was in a crazy rush to catch the train but had 12 cents in my pocket. She insisted for more. Since I usually don't ever give out money, I asked her if she wanted to eat at this taqueria that she was standing right outside of.
There is a point to this story. I'm not posting because I think I'm such a good person. I'm in fact, a very, very bad person.
She asks me to walk her to McDonald's, which is a few blocks away. I thought to myself, "I'll surely miss the train if I go now!" It's pretty crazy how I've changed to be this selfish. Anyhow, we settled to some convenient store where she could purchase a vitamin water and get some cash back. The store clerk had none of it. Then the woman left and said, "I'm so STUPID!" in frustration and some deep self-pity.
I responded by saying, "Ma'am, you're not stupid!"
And she wept.
It was nuts. She didn't need anyone to affirm her, she just needed someone to tell her that she wasn't what society probably thinks of her. She didn't need anyone to look up to her, she wept because someone didn't look down on her. I thought about how broken she was and I was biting my lips pretty hard to not cry too.
Anyhow, we went to get some food after, and I somehow caught another train that didn't make me get home that late.
There are a few points behind this post: 1. This world is full of broken people. The poor live day to day not knowing whether or not they'll eat, and if/where they'll have a place to rest. 2) People need a sharing of the Gospel in two ways: deed and truth. It isn't enough to love people with words only, but neglect their most basic needs.
3)Do it unto Jesus. From Matthew 25:
42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'
44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'
45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'
After Jiu-Jitsu, I ran like I usually would to the Bart station to catch the train back home. I run because there's a wealth of people smoking, and I hate second-hand smoke because it really triggers my asthma bad. I also run because it's pretty late and I'm trying to catch a certain train home. On my way, this lady with very little teeth approached me asking me for money. I told her as I was running that I was in a crazy rush to catch the train but had 12 cents in my pocket. She insisted for more. Since I usually don't ever give out money, I asked her if she wanted to eat at this taqueria that she was standing right outside of.
There is a point to this story. I'm not posting because I think I'm such a good person. I'm in fact, a very, very bad person.
She asks me to walk her to McDonald's, which is a few blocks away. I thought to myself, "I'll surely miss the train if I go now!" It's pretty crazy how I've changed to be this selfish. Anyhow, we settled to some convenient store where she could purchase a vitamin water and get some cash back. The store clerk had none of it. Then the woman left and said, "I'm so STUPID!" in frustration and some deep self-pity.
I responded by saying, "Ma'am, you're not stupid!"
And she wept.
It was nuts. She didn't need anyone to affirm her, she just needed someone to tell her that she wasn't what society probably thinks of her. She didn't need anyone to look up to her, she wept because someone didn't look down on her. I thought about how broken she was and I was biting my lips pretty hard to not cry too.
Anyhow, we went to get some food after, and I somehow caught another train that didn't make me get home that late.
There are a few points behind this post: 1. This world is full of broken people. The poor live day to day not knowing whether or not they'll eat, and if/where they'll have a place to rest. 2) People need a sharing of the Gospel in two ways: deed and truth. It isn't enough to love people with words only, but neglect their most basic needs.
3)Do it unto Jesus. From Matthew 25:
42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.'
44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'
45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'