uhggg.
I realize that I only write in this thing when I feel like a bitch. I'm writeing here cause i feel like I really have no one. No one to listen. So this is the only way for me to vent a bit. I have never felt like this, I hate to sound like a bitch, but I'm so alone. I have felt like this before, but at least i had one person to listen, and that was
( Read more... )
but you know, i recently had the same thing happen to me as well. my ex and i were in the mist of getting things back together because he was unhappy where he was. we had it planned out for 4 months that he was going to move down here just in time for my birthday and we were going to start fresh and avoid any drama we had before. sadly enough though i find out through a email that he's with his then ex that tried to break us up and pretty much forgave her for all the evil things she did. i've been sitting here wondering what i could have possibly done wrong if he chose her over me but you know, i realized that love is uncontrolable. he felt he loved her more so now i lost the one person that meant the world to me. i cried myself to sleep for a few nights but i woke up one morning and said fuck it, there's no need to cry over him anymore. he chose his path and now i have to choose mine so i got out there and started doing things i wanted to do because i don't have to worry about saving money for when he gets here. i can do what i want and i can focus on me and so far i've been so happy. i have my times where i get lonely but i try to think of the happier times we had and then think about the better times i had with my friends. so i guess with all that said, it helps to surround yourself around people that care about you and that you know you can have fun with. it sounds cheesey at times but it really helps. it's better than spending all day at work; not unless you have a cool ass job but i don't so... lol yeah. just get out there and do something for you.
take care.
-steph-
Reply
Leave a comment