uhggg.
I realize that I only write in this thing when I feel like a bitch. I'm writeing here cause i feel like I really have no one. No one to listen. So this is the only way for me to vent a bit. I have never felt like this, I hate to sound like a bitch, but I'm so alone. I have felt like this before, but at least i had one person to listen, and that was the one person that made me smile. And that person is now gone. They say there still there, but the kiss is, is, un-full-filling. Before that person couldnt wait to kiss me, now it fills like a burdon. It kills me, I'm so in love. Love does kill, I'm dead already, no matter what I do i'm dying, Im trying to hold on but she keeps giving me doubts. Why are things so fucking hard. I love you, you love me. so lets love eachother. Lets do what lovers do, I want to kiss you all hours of the nite like before. I want to grab your ass and not worry about your reaction. I want to wipe my snot on you like before. I want you to do little dances for me for no reason. Thats us! Thats me and you! We fight all the time, thats us! I need things again, and you say you do too. So meet me half way. Thats all I need. you.