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so it really hasn't been all that long since my last post but my life has def changed... I'm now single for the first time in over two years. I'm going through a rough time trying to deal with the dramatic changes going on, but hopefully I'll be alright. It's been rocky that past few weeks and finally on Saturday we decided maybe we're fighting to hold on to something that just isn't there anymore. It's not worth the pain I guess. We still love each other to death and when it's good it's great, but when it's bad it sucks hard core. We just didn't know what else to do because we've tried to talk it out, but it just seems like we're going in two different directions. It sucks but what can ya do. This is gonna take a long freaking time to get past. It would have been easier if something huge caused the break-up but it was just slowly falling apart I think and the inevitable happened. I've never been so close to someone and for it to just be taken away is tough. I just wonder how many more nights I'm going to cry myself to sleep because it's taking its toll on me. I'm devastated and to think I'll never have the one person I absolutely love. How is it that you always fall hardest for the person you shouldn't?