food for though, because eating is too much work...

[crazy_ska_kid]

so somtimes i really miss that kid. like the past few days. i would hve really liked him there to be all it's ok. you'll make it, you're stronger than all this. because ican't seem totell anyone, especially that pretty little girl whats really goin on.
i'll gist for you though, cause i know  you'll read this and say how much you miss me. then i'll remember it didnt mean much to me afterall.
ain't life a bitch?

anyways. for old times sake i'll number people, just to piss you off.

see idont eat much anymore because of person one. they really make me feel bad. i mean i know we're good friends and all, but it's just kind of like...you're skinnier tha nme, and you werent before and now ifeel bad.viola make me skinny.  though i have lost weight. and my doctor is concerned.... but i dont care.

and then person 2. agh as much as ai love that kid to death, you cant rebuild someone else's briges it doesnt work that way.  when i decide to forgive them for being an absolute asshole i will until then. i just dont like that kid.

and now i'm having so many mixed feelings about person 3. its complicated. but something like iwant to go back to the way thigns were oh so long ago when i was young and naive... buthat's just not possible is it? grr. oh well. we can dream. soem how i get this funny feeling under my skin.  please go away.

the thoguh that i will never get to competitively skate again.... oh lord i  need  a should ... ohwell.

goodnight.