i'm still in love with you
soo it seems that no one else really understands what a broken arm wrist whatever means to me. i cant work i cant wwrite i cant do the one thing i love doing. i'm probably never going to be able to again either. i just want to quit. seriously. and people just make up names for me and think it funny that i cant write. but its not and like today, i cant even stand at work. the simplest job there and i cant do it. i cant do anything for myself. its not cute its annoying. and the one person i want to be there for me isnt. he wontbe either, no matter what he says. my rant via Stars is under the cut. my eyes sting from crying. i think as soon as i got up to my room tonight after work i just started crying. i had to make it all stop though when marjie said she was stopping by. i cant bring myself to tears in front of her, i'm not that weak. but i cant believe this. i want to wake up from this bad dream, its my senior year, my last chance to look good on paper for delaware. and now what. ive got nothing. just a bunch of tests i never took. a broken arm, the inability to write legibly. a longing for one of my best friends to just acknowledge me. i want to be able to say things but i fear that guillotine again. i dont wanna lose anything else. but ya know what. i am. and its only a matter of time.
what the hell am i supposed to do for 10-12 weeks? anyone? sit around? eating is too hard for me. everything is too hard. god dammit.
i dont blame my brother for becoming so lethargic anymore. it seems when life is there and so perfect him and i weren't priviledged enough to have it. oh well. i guess i'll eend up like him after all. thanks for making the shoes small enough to fill jon. i'll probably enjoy this walk alone.
right now is when i need someone the most. and right now is when no one is around. lord knows why donnie doesnt answer his phone anymore. i'm not even gonna try pat. ashley hasnt answered all weekend. felecia is probably high. i'll stop there. and theres your Stars song
Time can take it's toll on the best of us
Look at you you're growing old so young
Traffic lights blink at you in the evening
Tilt your head and turn it to the sun
Sometimes the T.V. is like a lover
Singing softly as you fall asleep
You wake up in the morning and it's still there
Adding up the things you'll never be
Alright, I can say what you want me to,
Alright, I can do all the things you do,
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you
Time can take it's toll on the best of us
Look at you you're growing old so young
Traffic lights blink at you in the evening
You tilt your head and turn it to the sun
You disembark the latest flight from paradise
You almost turn your ankle on the snow
You fall back into where you started
Make up words to songs you used to know
So...
Alright, I can say what you want me to,
Alright, I can do all the things you do,
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you,
The hard luck god
You never had a chance you know
Incurable romantics never do
He held the flame I wasn't born to carry
I'll leave the dieing young stuff up to you
You get back on the latest flight to paradise
I found out, from a note taped to the door
I think I saw your airplane in the sky tonight
Through my window, lying on the kitchen floor.
Alright, I can say what you want me to,
(I want more)
Alright, I can do all the things you do,
(Give me more)
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you,
(I want more)
Alright, I'll say you want me to,
(Give Me More)
Alright, I'll do all the things you do,
(I Want More From You)
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you
"... in caring for your jessica the best way to make her happy is home made cookies and a warm hug." tok project on caring for your jessica
what the hell am i supposed to do for 10-12 weeks? anyone? sit around? eating is too hard for me. everything is too hard. god dammit.
i dont blame my brother for becoming so lethargic anymore. it seems when life is there and so perfect him and i weren't priviledged enough to have it. oh well. i guess i'll eend up like him after all. thanks for making the shoes small enough to fill jon. i'll probably enjoy this walk alone.
right now is when i need someone the most. and right now is when no one is around. lord knows why donnie doesnt answer his phone anymore. i'm not even gonna try pat. ashley hasnt answered all weekend. felecia is probably high. i'll stop there. and theres your Stars song
Time can take it's toll on the best of us
Look at you you're growing old so young
Traffic lights blink at you in the evening
Tilt your head and turn it to the sun
Sometimes the T.V. is like a lover
Singing softly as you fall asleep
You wake up in the morning and it's still there
Adding up the things you'll never be
Alright, I can say what you want me to,
Alright, I can do all the things you do,
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you
Time can take it's toll on the best of us
Look at you you're growing old so young
Traffic lights blink at you in the evening
You tilt your head and turn it to the sun
You disembark the latest flight from paradise
You almost turn your ankle on the snow
You fall back into where you started
Make up words to songs you used to know
So...
Alright, I can say what you want me to,
Alright, I can do all the things you do,
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you,
The hard luck god
You never had a chance you know
Incurable romantics never do
He held the flame I wasn't born to carry
I'll leave the dieing young stuff up to you
You get back on the latest flight to paradise
I found out, from a note taped to the door
I think I saw your airplane in the sky tonight
Through my window, lying on the kitchen floor.
Alright, I can say what you want me to,
(I want more)
Alright, I can do all the things you do,
(Give me more)
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you,
(I want more)
Alright, I'll say you want me to,
(Give Me More)
Alright, I'll do all the things you do,
(I Want More From You)
Alright, I'll make it all up for you,
I'm still in love with you,
I'm still in love with you
"... in caring for your jessica the best way to make her happy is home made cookies and a warm hug." tok project on caring for your jessica