so here's the problem..
it's approximately 2:38 am. and my alarm is going off at 6:15 am. granted that's for ashley to get up, but the chances of me getting more sleep, is slim. well, now that i'm still awake, maybe i'm lying. maybe i will go back to sleep.
either or. this is really becoming a problem. why am i still awake you ask? BECAUSE I CAN NOT SLEEP. i'm freaking EXHAUSTED. but i lay in bed and just can't sleep. which is why, when i go to the doctor on august 31, i'll be asking for a prescription to get a sleep study done. yeah, that's right. sleep in a room with electrodes and shit monitoring me while someone is in another room watching me. COOL. not. i know that many people (especially with kids) are thinking i'm a huge weenie, bitching about not getting a ton of sleep. but the truth is, i am barely FUNCTIONAL anymore. and school is about to start. and i have 2 job interviews friday. i can not AFFORD to be nonfunctional. it's just not good.
in other doctor news, i'm going to see my orthopaedic about my knee. i'm pretty sure i may have torn my MCL a few years ago.. it's bugged me for a while, but it's way more constant now. and i've realized i'm basically screwed because i'll bet he sends me to physical therapy and we already have a HUGE bill from them from LAST time i was in PT bc our stupid insurance company covers VERY little of the payments, and then we get sent a massive bill at the end. it's SUPER awesome. again. not.
i'm also going to be seeing an allergy and immunology specialist about possibly getting back on allergy shots, or another medication. i'd really like my life to be more bearable. to be able to be around animals and not die. and to be able to go outside without worrying i'll sneeze myself to death.
all in all i'm just pretty stressed over the next few weeks.. trying to find a job (hoping these interviews go well), getting on track with school when it starts, getting these dr appts and health issues taken care of.. and being able to SLEEP again. all of that would be amazing. oh yeah. and getting back into the gym. because despite what people think (or insist) i HAVE gained almost 30 lbs in the past year. and i think you all are CRAZY if you can't see it. so i'll be damned if i don't start hitting the gym a LOT more once i have a set schedule and can commit to it.
okay that is all. i'm going to go.. lay in bed. or something like that. and pray i can sleep so i can function tomorrow.. bc the next few days entail this..
-going to bed.. sleeping a few hours (i hope) up at 6:15, MAYBE going back to sleep til 8ish
-babysitting 9-4
-home to shower off the smell of baby spit up, iron my clothes, pack, and get ready
-station at 6 pm.. over night til..
-thursday morning.. sleep in at the station til 7 or so..
-get up, shower, get ready..
-job interview in fairfax from 10-11 am..
-job interview in herdon at 12:30pm..
-hopefully back in time to pick up my books from the Manassas bookstore.. then I have to run to the Alexandria one at some point.. either thursday or friday..
then i'm babysitting saturday night, hopefully cleaning my bedroom, bathroom and perhaps the rest of the house over the rest of the weekend.. and SLEEPING at some point!
ahhhhhhhh someone hug me. please.
either or. this is really becoming a problem. why am i still awake you ask? BECAUSE I CAN NOT SLEEP. i'm freaking EXHAUSTED. but i lay in bed and just can't sleep. which is why, when i go to the doctor on august 31, i'll be asking for a prescription to get a sleep study done. yeah, that's right. sleep in a room with electrodes and shit monitoring me while someone is in another room watching me. COOL. not. i know that many people (especially with kids) are thinking i'm a huge weenie, bitching about not getting a ton of sleep. but the truth is, i am barely FUNCTIONAL anymore. and school is about to start. and i have 2 job interviews friday. i can not AFFORD to be nonfunctional. it's just not good.
in other doctor news, i'm going to see my orthopaedic about my knee. i'm pretty sure i may have torn my MCL a few years ago.. it's bugged me for a while, but it's way more constant now. and i've realized i'm basically screwed because i'll bet he sends me to physical therapy and we already have a HUGE bill from them from LAST time i was in PT bc our stupid insurance company covers VERY little of the payments, and then we get sent a massive bill at the end. it's SUPER awesome. again. not.
i'm also going to be seeing an allergy and immunology specialist about possibly getting back on allergy shots, or another medication. i'd really like my life to be more bearable. to be able to be around animals and not die. and to be able to go outside without worrying i'll sneeze myself to death.
all in all i'm just pretty stressed over the next few weeks.. trying to find a job (hoping these interviews go well), getting on track with school when it starts, getting these dr appts and health issues taken care of.. and being able to SLEEP again. all of that would be amazing. oh yeah. and getting back into the gym. because despite what people think (or insist) i HAVE gained almost 30 lbs in the past year. and i think you all are CRAZY if you can't see it. so i'll be damned if i don't start hitting the gym a LOT more once i have a set schedule and can commit to it.
okay that is all. i'm going to go.. lay in bed. or something like that. and pray i can sleep so i can function tomorrow.. bc the next few days entail this..
-going to bed.. sleeping a few hours (i hope) up at 6:15, MAYBE going back to sleep til 8ish
-babysitting 9-4
-home to shower off the smell of baby spit up, iron my clothes, pack, and get ready
-station at 6 pm.. over night til..
-thursday morning.. sleep in at the station til 7 or so..
-get up, shower, get ready..
-job interview in fairfax from 10-11 am..
-job interview in herdon at 12:30pm..
-hopefully back in time to pick up my books from the Manassas bookstore.. then I have to run to the Alexandria one at some point.. either thursday or friday..
then i'm babysitting saturday night, hopefully cleaning my bedroom, bathroom and perhaps the rest of the house over the rest of the weekend.. and SLEEPING at some point!
ahhhhhhhh someone hug me. please.