claws are out..
yeah true story...
mood mood mood. i don't even know if there's a word for this mood.
so here's the deal. i'm so sick of boys. and of not boys. i'm sick of being bored, and browsing personal ads (yeah i'm a loser, don't tell me to not meet ppl online, i'm so sick of that fucking speech) and being totally disappointed. there are NO decent looking guys around here. i know most of them, and the rest i've seen online, i'm NOT impressed. and no, i'm not "looking" for a relationship. but it would be nice to have someone to go to dinner with, or see a movie with, or go on a date with that isn't a complete douche bag loser who's just out for sex. it's like i have a fucking magnet on me for those kind of guys. i mean what the hell is it. if anyone knows, PLEASE tell me. cause i'd love to get them all to just disappear. and i'd like to find me a nice guy somewhere. one with a brain, and who enjoys the same things i do, and who looks nice. is that SO much to ask?
and i wonder why i'm just obsessed with leland. at least he's a portrayal of a decent guy. i'd run away into the sunset with him any day. i'd marry him anyday. yes i'm pathetic. you don't need to tell me. but it's true.
blah. blah. blah. blah. that is how i feel. about boys. about life. about everything. i want to be able to work out again, and go running, and freakin WALK and shower, and enjoy my LIFE. i'm sick of this whole crippled lifestyle. six more days dammit. SIX more days.
someone needs to like.. hug me or something. and kidnap leland and give him to me for my birthday that's in THIRTEEN DAYS.
that's right. another birthday. another valentine's day. without a date. no flowers, no candy, no sweet kisses. yeah. i officially HATE december thru february. ew.
well that's not true. ashley lynne and i have a valentines date. and i'm very excited for it :-) she is rather amazing after all. i hope she holds my hand ;-)
someone cheer me up. or at least smack me so i stop being so mopey and irritated. or.. kidnap leland. that is ALWAYS the fallback plan.
mood mood mood. i don't even know if there's a word for this mood.
so here's the deal. i'm so sick of boys. and of not boys. i'm sick of being bored, and browsing personal ads (yeah i'm a loser, don't tell me to not meet ppl online, i'm so sick of that fucking speech) and being totally disappointed. there are NO decent looking guys around here. i know most of them, and the rest i've seen online, i'm NOT impressed. and no, i'm not "looking" for a relationship. but it would be nice to have someone to go to dinner with, or see a movie with, or go on a date with that isn't a complete douche bag loser who's just out for sex. it's like i have a fucking magnet on me for those kind of guys. i mean what the hell is it. if anyone knows, PLEASE tell me. cause i'd love to get them all to just disappear. and i'd like to find me a nice guy somewhere. one with a brain, and who enjoys the same things i do, and who looks nice. is that SO much to ask?
and i wonder why i'm just obsessed with leland. at least he's a portrayal of a decent guy. i'd run away into the sunset with him any day. i'd marry him anyday. yes i'm pathetic. you don't need to tell me. but it's true.
blah. blah. blah. blah. that is how i feel. about boys. about life. about everything. i want to be able to work out again, and go running, and freakin WALK and shower, and enjoy my LIFE. i'm sick of this whole crippled lifestyle. six more days dammit. SIX more days.
someone needs to like.. hug me or something. and kidnap leland and give him to me for my birthday that's in THIRTEEN DAYS.
that's right. another birthday. another valentine's day. without a date. no flowers, no candy, no sweet kisses. yeah. i officially HATE december thru february. ew.
well that's not true. ashley lynne and i have a valentines date. and i'm very excited for it :-) she is rather amazing after all. i hope she holds my hand ;-)
someone cheer me up. or at least smack me so i stop being so mopey and irritated. or.. kidnap leland. that is ALWAYS the fallback plan.