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Grrrr!!!
why cant anything be simple?!?!
why cant i just say this is how i want it to be, and not end up hurting somebody.
no matter what i do now, i will hurt somebody. i have allready hurt one. and now, if i do the thing i want to do (again) than i would be hurting somebody else. but this time, i really dont want to hurt the person i would hurt if i did what i wanted to do. last time, it didnt matter so much. but this person is different, i mean i know this person pretty well, and i really hate seeing them hurt...
but if it comes down to my suffering or their suffering, which do i choose?
again GRRRRR!
...
why do you do this to me?
you push me away for so long,
and then when i finaly stop trying,
you try to pull me back in.
i want so bad to go back,
but how can i when i know just what you will do,
its the same thing over and over,
push and pull, push and pull.
and its even worse,
when after i let go,
and before you try to pull me back,
i atatch myself to another.
do you know you do this?
this messing with my head,
sometimes i wonder if you do,
and maybe thats why you do it.
but you have stayed in my head,
like nobody else has or will,
and just so you know,
i hope you never leave!!!
...
PORKAY!!!!!!!
why cant anything be simple?!?!
why cant i just say this is how i want it to be, and not end up hurting somebody.
no matter what i do now, i will hurt somebody. i have allready hurt one. and now, if i do the thing i want to do (again) than i would be hurting somebody else. but this time, i really dont want to hurt the person i would hurt if i did what i wanted to do. last time, it didnt matter so much. but this person is different, i mean i know this person pretty well, and i really hate seeing them hurt...
but if it comes down to my suffering or their suffering, which do i choose?
again GRRRRR!
...
why do you do this to me?
you push me away for so long,
and then when i finaly stop trying,
you try to pull me back in.
i want so bad to go back,
but how can i when i know just what you will do,
its the same thing over and over,
push and pull, push and pull.
and its even worse,
when after i let go,
and before you try to pull me back,
i atatch myself to another.
do you know you do this?
this messing with my head,
sometimes i wonder if you do,
and maybe thats why you do it.
but you have stayed in my head,
like nobody else has or will,
and just so you know,
i hope you never leave!!!
...
PORKAY!!!!!!!