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im NOT in a good mood at ALL ugh i miss william and hes a work i need him rite now... i feel as if im bout to go off the deep end. everything i do is "unloving,bitchy,bad,rebellious,mean,selfish,or some other adjective that makes me a bad person. I dont get it at ALL. my parents i swear to want to crush me so hard that i cant get up!!! i think that is there goal rite now ?!!!! why?... why would u possibly want to destroy your own child.
O WAIT im not even that. we did family tree's at skool and i did the adoptive line which was a huge LIE and is completletly untrue and means nothing to me... dont get me wrong some of my family is great and i know they love me i love them to ...but they are not my family...they just r'nt i wish they were they r great people and have always treated me well....mayb not my immediate family im tlakin bout aunts and uncles and well like grandparents and stuff...
although one of my granparents is rite on with her views on me ....im adopted im not blood...its just a fact ...im not trying to hide it and no one else should try o hide it either its very obvious that im different then all of them and it shouldnt be a secret i am who i am. so i guess screw it i mean wut else do i do? can u do anything ? not really.
its hopless and i mean its just over... im not a good part of this family im not a "good addition" or "special" im just adopted and ive accepted it why cant everyone else?
o well ill be gone in a year and one month 13 days....ill be 18 and im moving in with katie!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~ i cant wait ill never have to be in their home again and never have to listen to there stupid antics and dumb close-minded ideas.
i hate how im so happy rite now and then i get around my family OF ALL PEOPLE and they make it become a bad day or ...if im not happy they make a bad day a million times worst!!! i once said i was a daddys girl...i guess im much more a daddys girl then a mommas girl cuz well half the time i want to choke her but its even worse with my dad b/c i trusted him at one point and hes proved me wrong everyone has proved me wrong ...william doesnt apply here by hthe way hes the one who keeps me goin.
i dunno im not sure its gona be ok this time ...
O WAIT im not even that. we did family tree's at skool and i did the adoptive line which was a huge LIE and is completletly untrue and means nothing to me... dont get me wrong some of my family is great and i know they love me i love them to ...but they are not my family...they just r'nt i wish they were they r great people and have always treated me well....mayb not my immediate family im tlakin bout aunts and uncles and well like grandparents and stuff...
although one of my granparents is rite on with her views on me ....im adopted im not blood...its just a fact ...im not trying to hide it and no one else should try o hide it either its very obvious that im different then all of them and it shouldnt be a secret i am who i am. so i guess screw it i mean wut else do i do? can u do anything ? not really.
its hopless and i mean its just over... im not a good part of this family im not a "good addition" or "special" im just adopted and ive accepted it why cant everyone else?
o well ill be gone in a year and one month 13 days....ill be 18 and im moving in with katie!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~ i cant wait ill never have to be in their home again and never have to listen to there stupid antics and dumb close-minded ideas.
i hate how im so happy rite now and then i get around my family OF ALL PEOPLE and they make it become a bad day or ...if im not happy they make a bad day a million times worst!!! i once said i was a daddys girl...i guess im much more a daddys girl then a mommas girl cuz well half the time i want to choke her but its even worse with my dad b/c i trusted him at one point and hes proved me wrong everyone has proved me wrong ...william doesnt apply here by hthe way hes the one who keeps me goin.
i dunno im not sure its gona be ok this time ...