I think what I thought was there wasn't ever really there.
I think it was all in my head.

It's starting to show.......

I'm hungry.
::pouts::

I love Wilberth for loving me for loving me for being fat!
=]

I love my boyfriend more though.
A LOT MORE!!!

He leaves to Iowa
My poor love.....all alone in the cold!
I hope he doesn't freeze!
<3

 Note to self:

Be more patient

If I was gone for forever......
would you really miss me?

 I want OUT
for reals......

I dont even know anymore......
I feel so insecure.
 =[

My insecurities are going to bite me in the .....well you know

 All the cool kids get 5th chair.....DERRRR! =D
I was pretty really shocked about our results today BUT
I still have region and pre area to kick butt......
Let's pray that I make it to Area again this year
If I don't, my life is officially over.....

No joke.

 I don't know why I work my @$$ off for my mother if she doesn't even care.
She told me straight up so no one can say that it's not true.
I stay up hours trying to get free money to go to freakin college 
I try to do my best in all areas of music so that I can get some acknowledgement
I place myself in advanced classes so that I could look good to ( Read more... )

All that stuff just isn't for me.....
Heather and Jesus know my heart.

I wish "friends" wouldn't talk without knowing how I truly feel
People should listen to both sides first.
Better yet....if they don't know what it's like to be in my shoes they just shouldn't say anything at all.

I'd rather be in college crying over midterms and finals than worrying ( Read more... )

 God, please tell me it will be over.
Tell me it'll be over soon.......please.