Just talking
Well I guess I can just type considering no one reads this thing much anyways. I need somewhere to vent my frustrations. Venting to Scott just isn't working anymore. So if you don't want to listen to me complain, please stop reading.
I guess i'm freaking out. I graduate in May, which you would think I would be so excited and to be honest I am. I am so excited to finally be done with school work. To never have to sit in a classroom again. That to me is so exciting. The scary part is the fact that I have NO CLUE where i'm going to end up. Scott has two job opportunites. Now you would think okay what does that matter. Well the jobs are in two different states, neither being in Michigan. One is in New Jersey and one is in Kentucky. It would totally be fine if we knew which one we were going to. I could then plan on our move and start to find an apartment. But no, we are waiting on people to make up their minds. Which leaves us waiting "patiently." YEA RIGHT. Have you ever known me to be patient when the future is so uncertain. So basically its a month before graduation and a month before we know where we are going to be moving and we DON'T have a apartment ligned up at all. I just wish Scott knew how hard it is to find a nice apartment with such little time. To make matters worse i'm freaking out. I know that I wan't to spend the rest of my life with Scott. I know I wan't to marry him. The only thing that sucks is that he's waiting to find out about his future to propose to me. I totally would be fine with that if the circumstances were different. So a little back story. My family is very traditional, they believe that living with a man before marriage is living in sin. If we were engaged and had a day planned for our wedding then it might not be as big of a deal. In fact when I told my mom about our move she basically told me that she doesnt want to pay for my schooling bills anymore. Now when I call the house she won't even talk to me. Which of course isn't making my life any easier. My mom and I have always been close and for her to basically condone my decision is killing me.
To make matters even worse these are my last two weeks of school. This week is just trying to catch up. Next week I have 1 test, 1 final, 2 take home finals, 2 papers, and 2 presentations.
So on top of all of this shit weighing on my mind I now have to deal with the sadness of leaving SVSU. I'm moving out on May 12th with my last day of work being May 11th. I know i've always said I hated that job. But I truely love the people there. I'm really really going to miss them. I know that Sherry is really upset that i'm leaving. I guess i'm having jelousy, I mean seriously I created most of that shit there. Now I have to teach someone else how to do MY work. It's just frustrating. I'm also going to miss the people. I've gotten close to Nikki and LJ again. And of course i'm going to miss Sarah and Rene. It just sucks cause once I graduate i'm scared that i'm going to loose everyone I care about. Especially if I move to another state. I'm not going to know anyone. It's just a lot to think about.
I'm outta here. I need to listen to my Daughtry CD as loud as I can. It helps... sometimes.
I guess i'm freaking out. I graduate in May, which you would think I would be so excited and to be honest I am. I am so excited to finally be done with school work. To never have to sit in a classroom again. That to me is so exciting. The scary part is the fact that I have NO CLUE where i'm going to end up. Scott has two job opportunites. Now you would think okay what does that matter. Well the jobs are in two different states, neither being in Michigan. One is in New Jersey and one is in Kentucky. It would totally be fine if we knew which one we were going to. I could then plan on our move and start to find an apartment. But no, we are waiting on people to make up their minds. Which leaves us waiting "patiently." YEA RIGHT. Have you ever known me to be patient when the future is so uncertain. So basically its a month before graduation and a month before we know where we are going to be moving and we DON'T have a apartment ligned up at all. I just wish Scott knew how hard it is to find a nice apartment with such little time. To make matters worse i'm freaking out. I know that I wan't to spend the rest of my life with Scott. I know I wan't to marry him. The only thing that sucks is that he's waiting to find out about his future to propose to me. I totally would be fine with that if the circumstances were different. So a little back story. My family is very traditional, they believe that living with a man before marriage is living in sin. If we were engaged and had a day planned for our wedding then it might not be as big of a deal. In fact when I told my mom about our move she basically told me that she doesnt want to pay for my schooling bills anymore. Now when I call the house she won't even talk to me. Which of course isn't making my life any easier. My mom and I have always been close and for her to basically condone my decision is killing me.
To make matters even worse these are my last two weeks of school. This week is just trying to catch up. Next week I have 1 test, 1 final, 2 take home finals, 2 papers, and 2 presentations.
So on top of all of this shit weighing on my mind I now have to deal with the sadness of leaving SVSU. I'm moving out on May 12th with my last day of work being May 11th. I know i've always said I hated that job. But I truely love the people there. I'm really really going to miss them. I know that Sherry is really upset that i'm leaving. I guess i'm having jelousy, I mean seriously I created most of that shit there. Now I have to teach someone else how to do MY work. It's just frustrating. I'm also going to miss the people. I've gotten close to Nikki and LJ again. And of course i'm going to miss Sarah and Rene. It just sucks cause once I graduate i'm scared that i'm going to loose everyone I care about. Especially if I move to another state. I'm not going to know anyone. It's just a lot to think about.
I'm outta here. I need to listen to my Daughtry CD as loud as I can. It helps... sometimes.