I miss my Grandpa

[crazy13utiful]

Another long and sad day.

This morning i woke up around 9:00 and we went to the Church to see the minister about the funeral on Saturday. And my dad told me to be strong but it was SO hard for me. We were all telling memories and stories about my Grandpa and one particular story taht my mom told was about the time when her and my dad told him

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[crazy13utiful]

Whoa whoa whoa... you can think what you want to think Erin. Why would you say we arent really friends anymore? I kno that you do feel bad about my Grandpa and that you love all of us. What i dont understand is why you didnt call me? I tried and tried and tried to call you and never could get ahold of you. And you can call me a hypocrit all you want... i was just stating how i feel... if my statement was false i'm sorry! Thats just how i feel! Its hard at a time of need when my best friend doesnt call. I'm not askin for sympathy cuz i dont need it... just the simple fact of having a good friend who has always been like family to me! I'm sorry! I dont know whats else to say! Anyways how have i EVER used you? Thats bull shit all in itself! Out of NOWHERE you stopped talking to me, calling me... i dont kno what that is? Your like me best friend and always will be... but you confuse the hell out of me... i dont want to seem like a bitch but right now i'm having a hard time with everything... i feel like i've lost a best friend/sister on top of losing my Grandpa... a person whom i have been closest to in my life! Everything has been hard! You have always been there for me and now is when i need you the most Erin! I still love you to death cuz you will always be my sister! I just dont kno what to say, my whole mind and everything else is so confused and i feel lost! i'm just sorry if what i said was rude, hypocritical or anything else in any way! -<3Lauren

[deadlylips]

I stopped calling or talking to you because the only time that you ever called me was when you wanted a ride. And you can't deny that. You left messages and the first thing you said was " Hey. I'm just calling to see if you can give me a ride..." That hurts Lauren. I feel the same way that I lost a best friend/sister. And I am sorry that I didn't call. But I didn't know what to say. I was hurt and pissed and confused. And I didn't know what to say, it would have been weird. I am and will always be here for you. And I didn't know that you called me. I didn't think that you wanted anything with me. Audra told me that your grandpa died. She said that you called her and told her, and you never called me so I thought you didn't want me. I'm sorry if there was a misunderstanding. And you know I love you. My cell phone hasn't worked for awhile and won't again until Friday, so if you want to talk to me call my house, ok? I love you Lauren.

[crazy13utiful]

Erin! I dont want to fight becuz we've been friends for so long! and i'm sorry but i am going to deny ever callin you and the first thing saying if you can give me a ride... the only time i ever did that was for the soccer games! Riding with Kaleigh was awkward and car rides with you are always fun! We've had so many fun times together and i wish things could go back to the way they were! And i'm sorry if it was ever anything other than that! I always tried not to do anything like that bcuz i could understand how it would feel to have friends only call bcuz they needed a ride! I'm sorry! If that was the case it was not my intentions! I dont kno what else to say... and i did want you there cuz i kno you understand and all I didnt realize that you cell didnt work... and thats what i called! I called your cell phone and your house the day it happened... around like 11:15ish cuz i figured youd be home or at least in yer car after school! but i'm sorry and i dont wanna our friendship to be ruined! Love you to death gurlie! I hope maybe sometime we could hang out and get whatever we need to say to eachother down to the point and things could go back to the way they were!