I miss my Grandpa
Another long and sad day.
This morning i woke up around 9:00 and we went to the Church to see the minister about the funeral on Saturday. And my dad told me to be strong but it was SO hard for me. We were all telling memories and stories about my Grandpa and one particular story taht my mom told was about the time when her and my dad told him that my mom was having twins... Everytime i hear that story i cry. My grandpa was never a cryer and was never speechless til that day. He always wanted his twisn bcuz he was a twin.. he had a twin sister.. and we were coming... his dream was finally coming true and he was so excited. And now that he's gone it hits me even harder and makes me cry even more. He was my grandpa! and i miss him so much. These past 2 days have been the hardest days of my life. Knowing now that i'm never going to see him again... well i will someday but not for a long time. Only in pictures. And now everytime i see a picture of him i cry. I just cant handle this. And also today at the church i looked at my Grandma and my Aunt Karen and everyone else when my mom told them the story about us twins... that was like the first time i'd ever really seen my Grandma cry! Which made it even harder. And seeing how everyone is dealing with all of it and taking it all in... its so unbarable. I just dont kno what to do!
On top of that... i have a friend that i've been friends with for years and that person doesnt even care and isnt even nudging a finger to be there for me. When their grandpa passed away i was there for them 100% and there if they needed a shoulder to cry on... and that on person hasnt even bothered to call me! Thats not kewl... and it makes it harder for me. The rest of my friends that i've only been friends with for a few yrs show more respect and thoughtfulness that her. All i can say is right now i'm starting to realize who my true friends are. And to those of u that are here for me... Thank you!
I'm so sore from the accidecnt yesterday but that doesnt really phase me much cuz of everything else thats been going on.
Well i'm out cuz its my Nieces 1st Birthday and we're going to have cake and ice cream. So tootles!
<3Lauren Nichole