when you dream, dream big.
prom was absolutley amazing. it's an odd feeling, and i'm starting to feel it less, or so i thought. i was attempting to stop, not stop thinking about graduation just dissattach myself from the event itself. which i guess is a little ignorant and niave of me ... it was said last night for the first time, out of a teachers mouth. "ashley, they will make you walk, they will make sure that you walk." and it hit me ... i'm golden. not in a cocky way, just in a "tag, you're it" kind of way, where they're always the "safe" ground ... i'm the safe ground. people will be making sure that i walk .. even if i screw up. and it was weird to realize.
i also realized that i'm experiancing seperation anxiety for more people than i could possible or care to name. i'm scared ... when it comes down to it, i'm terrified. i was angry with soehren for not checking in on the council in a month .. and making me call him for information when the truth is i've looked up to the guy for two years now for help, guidance, and i'm suddenly hit, last night at the end of the dance with a sense of emptiness or thouht of emptiness. i know i'm not empty .. how could i be, i'm surrounded by amazing people. the point however, is that in three months i wont realize this ... and i will no longer be surrounded by these amazing people and that's what gets me.
at the end of the dance last night i was crying cause i'm sad. i've been crying on average three times a day. some days i cry five times, others once so on average three. and sometimes it's not the thought of where i'm heading, it's the thought of what i'm leaving behind. and when i come back, it's going to be different, we're going to be different.
this is my vote and i'll say it ...cause it's the only one that feels perfect.
when you cry be sure to dry your eyes,
cause better days are sure to come.
and when you smile be sure to smile wide,
and don't let them know that they have one.
and when you walk, walk with pride,
and don't show the hurt inside,
because the pain sill soon be gone.
and when you dream, dream big,
as big as the ocean blue.
cause when you dream it might come true.
when you dream, dream big.
and when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud,
cause it will carry all your cares away.
and when you see, see the beauty
all around and in yourself, and it will help you feel okay.
and when you pray, pray for strength
to help to carry on when the troubles come your way.
and when you dream, dream big,
as big as the ocean blue.
cause when you dream it might come true.
when you dream, dream big.
when you cry be sure to dry your eyes,
cause better days are sure to come.
and when you smile be sure to smile wide, and
don't let them know that they have one.
and when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud,
cause it will carry all your cares away.
and when you see, see the beauty all
around and in yourself, and it will help you feel okay.
and when you pray, pray for strength to
help to carry on when the troubles come your way.
and when you dream, dreambig
<3 ashley lynn
i also realized that i'm experiancing seperation anxiety for more people than i could possible or care to name. i'm scared ... when it comes down to it, i'm terrified. i was angry with soehren for not checking in on the council in a month .. and making me call him for information when the truth is i've looked up to the guy for two years now for help, guidance, and i'm suddenly hit, last night at the end of the dance with a sense of emptiness or thouht of emptiness. i know i'm not empty .. how could i be, i'm surrounded by amazing people. the point however, is that in three months i wont realize this ... and i will no longer be surrounded by these amazing people and that's what gets me.
at the end of the dance last night i was crying cause i'm sad. i've been crying on average three times a day. some days i cry five times, others once so on average three. and sometimes it's not the thought of where i'm heading, it's the thought of what i'm leaving behind. and when i come back, it's going to be different, we're going to be different.
this is my vote and i'll say it ...cause it's the only one that feels perfect.
when you cry be sure to dry your eyes,
cause better days are sure to come.
and when you smile be sure to smile wide,
and don't let them know that they have one.
and when you walk, walk with pride,
and don't show the hurt inside,
because the pain sill soon be gone.
and when you dream, dream big,
as big as the ocean blue.
cause when you dream it might come true.
when you dream, dream big.
and when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud,
cause it will carry all your cares away.
and when you see, see the beauty
all around and in yourself, and it will help you feel okay.
and when you pray, pray for strength
to help to carry on when the troubles come your way.
and when you dream, dream big,
as big as the ocean blue.
cause when you dream it might come true.
when you dream, dream big.
when you cry be sure to dry your eyes,
cause better days are sure to come.
and when you smile be sure to smile wide, and
don't let them know that they have one.
and when you laugh be sure to laugh out loud,
cause it will carry all your cares away.
and when you see, see the beauty all
around and in yourself, and it will help you feel okay.
and when you pray, pray for strength to
help to carry on when the troubles come your way.
and when you dream, dreambig
<3 ashley lynn