I dunno...
Okay. So, tonight was a good night overall. I had a date with James and decided that we are just not compatiable. That's okay though...he is a really nice guy, super interesting, and I would love to be a close friend of his. I guess that I just never got the "butterflies" or "goosebumps" that signify a meaningful crush/like for someone. In a nutshell though, he is really cute and sweet. A very good boy to have around.
And now I am just rehashing the past. I keep on thinking about what I was doing a year from now...exactly. I just wish that I could have been there. I know that things would have turned out differently if more people would have been around. Anyways, I love him. I miss him. And the more I think about it, the more I become sad. And the more I realize that he had so much more of his life to live. He was so funny, and attractive...and genuinely caring. I just miss a lot of things from last summer and he is a main component of it.
Anyway, I need to get some rest. Big day ahead of me tomorrow...shopping, music, and then a ton of driving.
And now I am just rehashing the past. I keep on thinking about what I was doing a year from now...exactly. I just wish that I could have been there. I know that things would have turned out differently if more people would have been around. Anyways, I love him. I miss him. And the more I think about it, the more I become sad. And the more I realize that he had so much more of his life to live. He was so funny, and attractive...and genuinely caring. I just miss a lot of things from last summer and he is a main component of it.
Anyway, I need to get some rest. Big day ahead of me tomorrow...shopping, music, and then a ton of driving.