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I see all these people in love. they still honestly love the ones they are with. i want some one to love me as much as i love them. i want to be the only one. i see pictures of my friends and how happy they are. they let everyone know all the time that they are in love. love is supposed to be a feeling that is shared with not only the person you love, but with the people in their life.
i know that im not perfect...not even close. but im starting to feel like im just not even good enough........
i want pictures on my facebook with someone that shows how happy we are. i want engagement pictures. i want wedding pictures. where im at now we dont even have enough money to get a car registered...and we arent anywhere near in love enough for engagement pictures...its practically impossible to even just get a picture together anymore.
im getting older and time is moving on...and im getting left behind.
i think the only course of action will be to break up with him. i dont know when or how yet...but i feel its inevitable. he doesnt love me anymore. i can feel it.
im really sad.
i wanted this to work but i cant do anymore work without at least something back.
i just have to figure it out...im no longer happy. i think parting ways is the only way i will be happy...and he will finally get to be with shannon...and not have to hide it from me any longer :(
my heart just needs time.
a great song says "waiting is wasting for people like me..." and its true. waiting for something that will never come is wasting. and in my case...it really is just that...a waste :(
i know that im not perfect...not even close. but im starting to feel like im just not even good enough........
i want pictures on my facebook with someone that shows how happy we are. i want engagement pictures. i want wedding pictures. where im at now we dont even have enough money to get a car registered...and we arent anywhere near in love enough for engagement pictures...its practically impossible to even just get a picture together anymore.
im getting older and time is moving on...and im getting left behind.
i think the only course of action will be to break up with him. i dont know when or how yet...but i feel its inevitable. he doesnt love me anymore. i can feel it.
im really sad.
i wanted this to work but i cant do anymore work without at least something back.
i just have to figure it out...im no longer happy. i think parting ways is the only way i will be happy...and he will finally get to be with shannon...and not have to hide it from me any longer :(
my heart just needs time.
a great song says "waiting is wasting for people like me..." and its true. waiting for something that will never come is wasting. and in my case...it really is just that...a waste :(