Talk About House Arrest
So yea, I'm not allowed to talk to anybody online or on the phone unless my homework is done. COmpletely. THat's not so good. I mean, since school started Allie and I have been really good with all that anywayz, but apparently my parents are still going nuts. So there. At least I have my precious LJ! *pets* Ashie and Neha were like "OMG you're NEVER online!!! You're like always doing homework or at work or something!!!" Ummm YEA. I kind of NEED to work and I kind of NEED to do homework. That's one thing that I have no problem at all IGNORING.
Today wasn't too bad. Easy day, and I was happy because in History we talked about writing theses, which (I'm such a dork) love. I love writing pursuasive essays. I was soooo happy I can't even tell you lol. Spanish was alright...Lunch was fine....Theatre was fine (except for me messing up reading *hits self in head* and Mirabal almost calling me Allison *hits Mirabal in head*)...Advanced Composition was cool with he hand thing. Me and Kim took a long time though. I took more time than her but I didn't know when to stop and it just kept going. But I learned a lot about her. Who wants me to interview them and trace their hand??? Someone I don't know EVERYTHING about (that rules out a couple people). I have so so so so so much homework over the Jewish Holidays. And for tomorow. (well that's just Precalc) and so much still to do for English and still have to pack tonight.
Last night was kinda cool sorta because I talked to Nora about history and then she told me she wanted me to be the next Technical Director! Wahhh???!!! BUt it was a cool idea that I hadn't thought about before. I really want to try for crewhead (I'm definately doing set no matter what) but my mother came and told me we would be at my cousin's Bar-Mitzvah that weekend. I was like oh G-d dammit!!! So i dunno what I'm allowed to do now, and that also puts Allie in a bad position since she wants to get into lights. And also she has to leave a little early each Saturday for a song and dance thing. THat doesn't sound great at ALL. *sigh* Much as I love being Jewish and much as I love my family, it can be demanding. BUt hey, that's faith right?
Oh- and on a side note I think I kinda figured out why I think the way I do. Okay, I live in a big house and we have a lot of stuff, but I didn't want to move here, I'm NOT a very materialistic person (like at all), I don't like it when my parents buy expensive things, and I hate showing people my house, becuase I always see the look on their faces and think "they think I'm a rich white Jewish greedy snob" And I HATE that feeling. And I think I know why now. It kinda dawned on me while Drew was over. In all the movies and the books and the history, the more wealthy has always been the evil greedy bad guys who are too naive to know about the world, right? And no one likes them. THey're the antagonists. And throughout this part of my life, all I have ever wanted was to be accepted. I don't want anything that sets me apart. Judaism doesn't usually bother me at all, I was born with it and I love it. Plus, my family was poor in the past BECAUSE they were Jewish, although that was way in the past. But being in a big house with the stuff I need- don't get me wrong, I'm thankful, I give to charity, I don't take it for granted- but it sets me apart and makes me feel like I'm one of the people that the protagonists hate. And that drives me up the wall. Does this make any sense? COuld I explain this to myself any better? I dunno, I feel weird just typing it.
I dunno that's my rant for the night. THat and parents tend to suck sometimes. So does Precalculus. Speaking of...
Today wasn't too bad. Easy day, and I was happy because in History we talked about writing theses, which (I'm such a dork) love. I love writing pursuasive essays. I was soooo happy I can't even tell you lol. Spanish was alright...Lunch was fine....Theatre was fine (except for me messing up reading *hits self in head* and Mirabal almost calling me Allison *hits Mirabal in head*)...Advanced Composition was cool with he hand thing. Me and Kim took a long time though. I took more time than her but I didn't know when to stop and it just kept going. But I learned a lot about her. Who wants me to interview them and trace their hand??? Someone I don't know EVERYTHING about (that rules out a couple people). I have so so so so so much homework over the Jewish Holidays. And for tomorow. (well that's just Precalc) and so much still to do for English and still have to pack tonight.
Last night was kinda cool sorta because I talked to Nora about history and then she told me she wanted me to be the next Technical Director! Wahhh???!!! BUt it was a cool idea that I hadn't thought about before. I really want to try for crewhead (I'm definately doing set no matter what) but my mother came and told me we would be at my cousin's Bar-Mitzvah that weekend. I was like oh G-d dammit!!! So i dunno what I'm allowed to do now, and that also puts Allie in a bad position since she wants to get into lights. And also she has to leave a little early each Saturday for a song and dance thing. THat doesn't sound great at ALL. *sigh* Much as I love being Jewish and much as I love my family, it can be demanding. BUt hey, that's faith right?
Oh- and on a side note I think I kinda figured out why I think the way I do. Okay, I live in a big house and we have a lot of stuff, but I didn't want to move here, I'm NOT a very materialistic person (like at all), I don't like it when my parents buy expensive things, and I hate showing people my house, becuase I always see the look on their faces and think "they think I'm a rich white Jewish greedy snob" And I HATE that feeling. And I think I know why now. It kinda dawned on me while Drew was over. In all the movies and the books and the history, the more wealthy has always been the evil greedy bad guys who are too naive to know about the world, right? And no one likes them. THey're the antagonists. And throughout this part of my life, all I have ever wanted was to be accepted. I don't want anything that sets me apart. Judaism doesn't usually bother me at all, I was born with it and I love it. Plus, my family was poor in the past BECAUSE they were Jewish, although that was way in the past. But being in a big house with the stuff I need- don't get me wrong, I'm thankful, I give to charity, I don't take it for granted- but it sets me apart and makes me feel like I'm one of the people that the protagonists hate. And that drives me up the wall. Does this make any sense? COuld I explain this to myself any better? I dunno, I feel weird just typing it.
I dunno that's my rant for the night. THat and parents tend to suck sometimes. So does Precalculus. Speaking of...