good eye, sniper!
i only allow myself to bitch on this thing once and awhile so here it goes.
i'm tired of this shit, of me not being satisfied. i'm also tired of no one being able to understand me. shits going on but i don't want people to know. and the people i want to know i can't tell, and the people i don't want to know i can't talk my way differently to them because of the perceptions they already have of me of knowing my shit. this is retarded and i'm sure you don't understand but i do and i just wish i had someone to talk to about things. i can't even talk to my own boyfriend about shit cuz we always disagree and it turns into arguements, and whenever i DO explain myself to someone i just here "oh's" and "dangs" and "that sucks" i want some real feedback i always think of myself as "there" for people but i can never get anyone to wanna be "there" for me and just listen to ME and tell ME some shit or slap some sense into me... SOMETHING! , i want someone to hear out my bullshit problems. cuz that's all it is... BULLSHIT. shit i got myself into, now i need a way out and i want help just like everyone else does. i don't expect them to solve the problem... i just like advice once in a whole. i'm beginning to realize i'm not happy (ONCE AGAIN) and with A LOT of things. the life i'm living is the life i'm simple choosing to DEAL WITH. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! i've been teary eyed about this shit all day. and to make matters worse i gotta write a letter to a court in san diego WHY my boss ISN'T guilty for going 83 on a 70... the hell, he IS guilty! so wtf?
i don't wanna go to fuckin school tonight but i know if i don't i won't hear the stupid end of it. damn i really wish i could sleep forever. (no i'm not suicidal, lol)
i'm tired of this shit, of me not being satisfied. i'm also tired of no one being able to understand me. shits going on but i don't want people to know. and the people i want to know i can't tell, and the people i don't want to know i can't talk my way differently to them because of the perceptions they already have of me of knowing my shit. this is retarded and i'm sure you don't understand but i do and i just wish i had someone to talk to about things. i can't even talk to my own boyfriend about shit cuz we always disagree and it turns into arguements, and whenever i DO explain myself to someone i just here "oh's" and "dangs" and "that sucks" i want some real feedback i always think of myself as "there" for people but i can never get anyone to wanna be "there" for me and just listen to ME and tell ME some shit or slap some sense into me... SOMETHING! , i want someone to hear out my bullshit problems. cuz that's all it is... BULLSHIT. shit i got myself into, now i need a way out and i want help just like everyone else does. i don't expect them to solve the problem... i just like advice once in a whole. i'm beginning to realize i'm not happy (ONCE AGAIN) and with A LOT of things. the life i'm living is the life i'm simple choosing to DEAL WITH. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! i've been teary eyed about this shit all day. and to make matters worse i gotta write a letter to a court in san diego WHY my boss ISN'T guilty for going 83 on a 70... the hell, he IS guilty! so wtf?
i don't wanna go to fuckin school tonight but i know if i don't i won't hear the stupid end of it. damn i really wish i could sleep forever. (no i'm not suicidal, lol)