live every day like it's your FIRST.
"living's easy with your eyes closed misunderstanding all you see. it's
getting hard to be someone but it all works out, it doesn't matter much
to me." -ben harper
maybe it's because of the 5 or 6 people i've known that have die wayy too young lately. or maybe it's because it's that time of year where we tend to cherish things a bit more, feel more strongly about others, and try not to take things for granted so much. or maybe it's because i am slowly getting wiser with my old age. regardless, i've decided what my new year's resolution is going to be. and for the first time in my life, it's going to be about something that really matters.
it's not going to be about how much weight or lose or how quickly i can stop biting my nails. it's going to be about something more important than that. about how i live my life. lately, or at least more often lately, i've found that i tend to get so angry with other's faults. i focus so much on other people, engrossing myself with their lives and their problems, that i tend to forget about what's important. it shouldn't matter to me that so and so doesn't say hi to me in the cafeteria or that one of my friends takes a little too long getting ready. their problems are not my own, and i shouldn't get mad at them. it's useless. why should i be wasting my time so concerned with otehr people when instead, i can be focusing on myself and my own life and how to better it for my benefit. i waste so much of my life with stupid, pointless shit like this, as much as i claim not to. and i know that. i always proclaim myself to be this laidback, carefree girl when in actuality, i am just as critical and lost as everyone else. however, that doesn't mean i can gradually become that girl. which is why my new year's resolution for 2006 is to stop worrying and criticizing others and to instead focus myself on the things that are important.... the friends and family members that love me unconditionally, and enjoying that ice cream sundae because it really does taste amazing, regardless of the fat content. i need to take life as it comes, knowing that nothing in my life will ever be perfect or necessarily go the way i want it to. but that doesn't mean that it can't be beautiful. so if i can jsut manage a positive attitude and be less critcal of those around me, then maybe i'll stop living half-assed.
k. that's enough philosophicizing for me.
goodnight
maybe it's because of the 5 or 6 people i've known that have die wayy too young lately. or maybe it's because it's that time of year where we tend to cherish things a bit more, feel more strongly about others, and try not to take things for granted so much. or maybe it's because i am slowly getting wiser with my old age. regardless, i've decided what my new year's resolution is going to be. and for the first time in my life, it's going to be about something that really matters.
it's not going to be about how much weight or lose or how quickly i can stop biting my nails. it's going to be about something more important than that. about how i live my life. lately, or at least more often lately, i've found that i tend to get so angry with other's faults. i focus so much on other people, engrossing myself with their lives and their problems, that i tend to forget about what's important. it shouldn't matter to me that so and so doesn't say hi to me in the cafeteria or that one of my friends takes a little too long getting ready. their problems are not my own, and i shouldn't get mad at them. it's useless. why should i be wasting my time so concerned with otehr people when instead, i can be focusing on myself and my own life and how to better it for my benefit. i waste so much of my life with stupid, pointless shit like this, as much as i claim not to. and i know that. i always proclaim myself to be this laidback, carefree girl when in actuality, i am just as critical and lost as everyone else. however, that doesn't mean i can gradually become that girl. which is why my new year's resolution for 2006 is to stop worrying and criticizing others and to instead focus myself on the things that are important.... the friends and family members that love me unconditionally, and enjoying that ice cream sundae because it really does taste amazing, regardless of the fat content. i need to take life as it comes, knowing that nothing in my life will ever be perfect or necessarily go the way i want it to. but that doesn't mean that it can't be beautiful. so if i can jsut manage a positive attitude and be less critcal of those around me, then maybe i'll stop living half-assed.
k. that's enough philosophicizing for me.
goodnight