its been awhile

[crapyou]

i just don't understand how i can care about someone so much and they not care about me at all. all i do is support you and treat you with respect. and you treat me like your punching bag. I'm tired. exhausted. worn out. and i just cant do this anymore. i just wish you would take my vulnerability as openness to be cherished and appreciated instead of as a way to hurt me more and more everyday. i just don't know if i can do anything else to help you understand where I'm coming from. all i want is to have someone, this person especially, care about me the way i care about you. you should be my support instead of trying to push me away and knock me down. i have enough problems and i hoped and prayed you wouldn't be one of them. but i guess i cant control other people no matter how much i care about them.

why do i try to be loving and helpful and get nothing but spite and mistrust, in return? I DON'T GET IT!