Who Knows
I got my upright bass. It is really not neccesarily pretty nor does it sound that great but it is mine and I can play it. Right now Ben and Lauren are upstairs at my apartment and they are loud and obnoxious. Oh well.
Jake told me to write about him so I am going to. He is playing my bass right now and being very seductive about it. His pants are floppy.
Brian and Kevin work/have skool tonight. Kevin will be home about 9:30, as willl Brian. Until then I have nothing much else to do, so I might try to clean the house or watch a movie I've already seen 95 times. I do have some homework to do but I probably won't do it. But who knows.
Leanne and I have been talking again. Oh Joy...............
Really, though, it sucks. She tells me she loves me and that she wants to be with me, yet she doesn't want to try and be with me. She gives me all these reasons for trying to work things out again, yet she somehow comes to the decision to not get back together. I don't understand it. At all!! Fuck.
Fuck again.
I've got to stop spending time worrying about her and what her decision will be. I can keep trying to convince her otherwise but she won't even listen to herself, so why would she listen to me. When I tell her to act with her Heart, she says that she is trying to figure out what her heart wants. Thats the idea, that you don't "figure out" what your heart wants, you just do! If you are trying to figure it out, that means you are thinking with your brain, which will always lead you astray.
Fuck for a third time.
I'm out of here.
Jake told me to write about him so I am going to. He is playing my bass right now and being very seductive about it. His pants are floppy.
Brian and Kevin work/have skool tonight. Kevin will be home about 9:30, as willl Brian. Until then I have nothing much else to do, so I might try to clean the house or watch a movie I've already seen 95 times. I do have some homework to do but I probably won't do it. But who knows.
Leanne and I have been talking again. Oh Joy...............
Really, though, it sucks. She tells me she loves me and that she wants to be with me, yet she doesn't want to try and be with me. She gives me all these reasons for trying to work things out again, yet she somehow comes to the decision to not get back together. I don't understand it. At all!! Fuck.
Fuck again.
I've got to stop spending time worrying about her and what her decision will be. I can keep trying to convince her otherwise but she won't even listen to herself, so why would she listen to me. When I tell her to act with her Heart, she says that she is trying to figure out what her heart wants. Thats the idea, that you don't "figure out" what your heart wants, you just do! If you are trying to figure it out, that means you are thinking with your brain, which will always lead you astray.
Fuck for a third time.
I'm out of here.