chuc mung nam moi
today i visited my grandmother's grave and borrowed a lighter from her neighbor's living relatives to light one of her incense that had not finished burning.
i also worked at the sheet music shoppe and then went to mimi's afterwards. it was good, and i totally ate like a depressed sad piglet. i confirmed with myself that it would be the last night and time i allow myself to feel like that, so i forced myself to go all the way with two slices of asian fruit cake. mm...ooowwoohhhh....
yep.
anyway. tomorrow will i go on the ultra slim fast shake grapefruit south beach atkins vegan diet? ...
mimi's house looks really nice now. we looked at old pictures on her computer of what our houses used to look like, and now everything is getting remodeled, and looking much nicer and newer, and more modern, with stainless steel refrigerators, that come with all the trays and compartments for liters and wine bottles, and a tray to hold your butter. did they have that back in the 70's? crushed ice making, water filtering refrigerators... a machine of the times... well really that's maybe a 80's or 90's thing maybe. today it's about my mac and ipod.
whatever really though.
i still have homework to do. i'm shit fucked. shit fuck.!
i thought about him today. i got a voicemail actually. before he sailed away. i'm different now. i still believe i love him. but i also ask myself... why? he doesn't love me. and i'm the type of person that doesn't want to love someone that doesn't love her back. because that's not right.
i never kiss someday so they would break my heart.
i also worked at the sheet music shoppe and then went to mimi's afterwards. it was good, and i totally ate like a depressed sad piglet. i confirmed with myself that it would be the last night and time i allow myself to feel like that, so i forced myself to go all the way with two slices of asian fruit cake. mm...ooowwoohhhh....
yep.
anyway. tomorrow will i go on the ultra slim fast shake grapefruit south beach atkins vegan diet? ...
mimi's house looks really nice now. we looked at old pictures on her computer of what our houses used to look like, and now everything is getting remodeled, and looking much nicer and newer, and more modern, with stainless steel refrigerators, that come with all the trays and compartments for liters and wine bottles, and a tray to hold your butter. did they have that back in the 70's? crushed ice making, water filtering refrigerators... a machine of the times... well really that's maybe a 80's or 90's thing maybe. today it's about my mac and ipod.
whatever really though.
i still have homework to do. i'm shit fucked. shit fuck.!
i thought about him today. i got a voicemail actually. before he sailed away. i'm different now. i still believe i love him. but i also ask myself... why? he doesn't love me. and i'm the type of person that doesn't want to love someone that doesn't love her back. because that's not right.
i never kiss someday so they would break my heart.