thursday
hello journal...i just got back from my wildlife cons. test and im hoping i didnt fail. i knew the majority of the answers, btu there are sections i think might make or break my grade. Im really gettig sick of these high stake tests and shit. thats the one thing i dont like about college: the fact that about $1000 of my money is riding on 3 tests. thats pretty fucking costly if u ask me. and i think it is because of these tests that i am looking at shit grades right now in some, if not all, my classes. I say if not all b/c im really not sure what im doing in any class. just kinda plowing blindly ahead and hoping i get at least a 90% on everything. i think complacency is starting to set in and im not about to accept that. i nEED deans list like my life depended upon it. it could be the difference between financial aid and no financial aid this winter...ive just got to pray that i can keep my gpa's way high (gpa's plural b/c i need a 3.0 in spanish classes, english classes, and then 3.3 overall). oh boy i really need to do well.
i got power and candy from my friend emily yesterday in a package ive had to pick up since foreverago. it's good stuff. thanx starneguster and my head is cold b/c i no longer have as much hair as before. now i must go do some hw. i hope everyone is doing well. if not, talk to me...im up for a good distraction! ok btw...still kinda pissed i have YET to see eternal sunshine of a spotless mind and garden state. and i also want to rewatch being john malchovich since i think i was too young to understand or even remember what that movie was like...all i can remember is people going throgh a little tunnel and then they were him...r smthn...
tmrw i have my writing fellow meeting @ 1:00!!!! omgosh im sooo nervous...this could be either a really good thing for me or a really bad thing, but im willing to take the risk this time, b/c i want to do it! OOOH and today i might actually eat dinner with someone!!! or a group, or anyone who cares to join me myself and I. Yesterday i had to work so naturally i get no nourishment there, and tuesday literally EVERYONE i would go to dinner with was gone, i had to make my own express (take stuf from regular lines and run otu the door) and go eat in my room alone. if there's one thing i hate it's eating alone. i was brought up in a family that is so oriented around everyone being at dinner that it's hard for me to concieve eating by myself. oh well...maybe ill get to eat with people at least TWO days this week...later dayz
-Mike
i got power and candy from my friend emily yesterday in a package ive had to pick up since foreverago. it's good stuff. thanx starneguster and my head is cold b/c i no longer have as much hair as before. now i must go do some hw. i hope everyone is doing well. if not, talk to me...im up for a good distraction! ok btw...still kinda pissed i have YET to see eternal sunshine of a spotless mind and garden state. and i also want to rewatch being john malchovich since i think i was too young to understand or even remember what that movie was like...all i can remember is people going throgh a little tunnel and then they were him...r smthn...
tmrw i have my writing fellow meeting @ 1:00!!!! omgosh im sooo nervous...this could be either a really good thing for me or a really bad thing, but im willing to take the risk this time, b/c i want to do it! OOOH and today i might actually eat dinner with someone!!! or a group, or anyone who cares to join me myself and I. Yesterday i had to work so naturally i get no nourishment there, and tuesday literally EVERYONE i would go to dinner with was gone, i had to make my own express (take stuf from regular lines and run otu the door) and go eat in my room alone. if there's one thing i hate it's eating alone. i was brought up in a family that is so oriented around everyone being at dinner that it's hard for me to concieve eating by myself. oh well...maybe ill get to eat with people at least TWO days this week...later dayz
-Mike