Weekend Recap
We had a good weekend. Saturday, MIL watch A and I met a friend at the mall. We shopped - I didn’t get much because I am so depressed about my body - I weigh less than I did when I got pregnant, yet everything looks like cr*p on me. I am so flabby and loose. I guess I need to make time to work out.
Sunday we had my sister’s baby shower. It went really well. Ashley was so good - she really was. She kept herself entertained and played with the other children. My mom’s friend was there with her daughters (whom I used to baby sit) and her daughter has a 13 month old - who would have thought our children would be playing together one day. It was nice.
Ashley is crawling..all over the place. She took off like a rocket on Friday and hasn't stopped since.
I am struck by the fact that I do so much for my sister and I really don’t get much in return. I really put a lot of time, effort, and money into her shower - I made all the food, favors, decorations…did games, bought gifts and set everything up (my mom is so not a hostess. I was ready to kill her - Ashley went down for a nap at 11 (the party started at 1) and there was so much to do - I had to hold Ashley because she really doesn’t have a place to put her now that she is moving and she would wake up every time I moved. I wanted to make sure she at least got a cap nap so she wasn’t fussy so I held her for about 40 minutes. I heard my mom upstairs moving around - well, when I got upstairs, NOT ONE THING HAD CHANGED…I have no idea what she did - the kitchen was a mess, dishes were stacked in the sink, nothing was set up. I wanted to yell at her but I know she means well and does try but she seems so clueless sometimes. And then when everyone got there - she just plopped down on the couch like she was a guest…so in addition to getting everyone drinks, fixing the food, cleaning, games..etc. I had to keep an eye on Ashley. So back to my sister - I know they don’t have much money and it isn’t that fact that she hasn’t purchased Ashley one thing since Christmas, but she doesn’t even make an effort to see Ashley - I always have to make the initiation - and she is Ashley’s Godmother (I am her daughters Godmother and I have been so good to her). I bought her the crib mattress, about $50 worth of stuff off of her registry, and about $50 in clothing…add that to the fact that I gave her 10 bins of clothes/blankets/bibs/sheets/bottles/, my 3 swings, boppy, bouncer..and I have never even gotten a thank you. Not to mention, I got my niece a bag of stuff (four outfits and some bath stuff) and $20 so she would have something to open and she graduated from preschool on Friday - she ripped everything open in a matter of seconds, threw it on the floor and acted like she could have cared less. I a guarantee that I won’t get a thank you from my niece. I write out Thank you cards from Ashley for EVERYTHING she gets and will expect her to participate in this as soon as she can write.
Oh and another thing that really irritates me. My parents really don’t care for my husband and it is kind of obvious. And while some of it is my fault because I complain about him to them (which I will no longer do) most of it is just annoying stuff. My husband came from an extremely abusive family…mostly emotional…he has a disability that was never diagnosed (ADD - so instead of dealing with it - his parents just beat him and called him stupid), his father died of a drug overdose when he was 7 (my husband actually was the one to come home from school and find him), he is a horrible procrastinator, a work-a-holic, and really he needs to grow up at times. But, I love him, he is good to me in his own way and for whatever reason, we work. My parents see that he is never home, that I do everything for Ashley and for our home, work a full time job and right now, I make more than double what he makes. They also see how he allows his mother to act and treat me. He is trying to get a business off of the ground which is turning out to be way harder than we ever thought, we have hit some really hard times financially. Then there is my brother in law who is a totally loser and my parents think he walks on water. They love him. Him and my sister split up a few years ago due to his excessive drinking and he went back to his ex wife and slept with her and then came back to my sister. And the entire time they were separated (about 6 months) - he didn’t give my sister ONE CENT….in fact, one night he came over to see my niece and asked to borrow money for cigarettes. And while he was out running around, my parents were footing the bills. Now why is it that this loser is loved by my parents and my husband is a dog?
Well, I must get back to work
Sunday we had my sister’s baby shower. It went really well. Ashley was so good - she really was. She kept herself entertained and played with the other children. My mom’s friend was there with her daughters (whom I used to baby sit) and her daughter has a 13 month old - who would have thought our children would be playing together one day. It was nice.
Ashley is crawling..all over the place. She took off like a rocket on Friday and hasn't stopped since.
I am struck by the fact that I do so much for my sister and I really don’t get much in return. I really put a lot of time, effort, and money into her shower - I made all the food, favors, decorations…did games, bought gifts and set everything up (my mom is so not a hostess. I was ready to kill her - Ashley went down for a nap at 11 (the party started at 1) and there was so much to do - I had to hold Ashley because she really doesn’t have a place to put her now that she is moving and she would wake up every time I moved. I wanted to make sure she at least got a cap nap so she wasn’t fussy so I held her for about 40 minutes. I heard my mom upstairs moving around - well, when I got upstairs, NOT ONE THING HAD CHANGED…I have no idea what she did - the kitchen was a mess, dishes were stacked in the sink, nothing was set up. I wanted to yell at her but I know she means well and does try but she seems so clueless sometimes. And then when everyone got there - she just plopped down on the couch like she was a guest…so in addition to getting everyone drinks, fixing the food, cleaning, games..etc. I had to keep an eye on Ashley. So back to my sister - I know they don’t have much money and it isn’t that fact that she hasn’t purchased Ashley one thing since Christmas, but she doesn’t even make an effort to see Ashley - I always have to make the initiation - and she is Ashley’s Godmother (I am her daughters Godmother and I have been so good to her). I bought her the crib mattress, about $50 worth of stuff off of her registry, and about $50 in clothing…add that to the fact that I gave her 10 bins of clothes/blankets/bibs/sheets/bottles/, my 3 swings, boppy, bouncer..and I have never even gotten a thank you. Not to mention, I got my niece a bag of stuff (four outfits and some bath stuff) and $20 so she would have something to open and she graduated from preschool on Friday - she ripped everything open in a matter of seconds, threw it on the floor and acted like she could have cared less. I a guarantee that I won’t get a thank you from my niece. I write out Thank you cards from Ashley for EVERYTHING she gets and will expect her to participate in this as soon as she can write.
Oh and another thing that really irritates me. My parents really don’t care for my husband and it is kind of obvious. And while some of it is my fault because I complain about him to them (which I will no longer do) most of it is just annoying stuff. My husband came from an extremely abusive family…mostly emotional…he has a disability that was never diagnosed (ADD - so instead of dealing with it - his parents just beat him and called him stupid), his father died of a drug overdose when he was 7 (my husband actually was the one to come home from school and find him), he is a horrible procrastinator, a work-a-holic, and really he needs to grow up at times. But, I love him, he is good to me in his own way and for whatever reason, we work. My parents see that he is never home, that I do everything for Ashley and for our home, work a full time job and right now, I make more than double what he makes. They also see how he allows his mother to act and treat me. He is trying to get a business off of the ground which is turning out to be way harder than we ever thought, we have hit some really hard times financially. Then there is my brother in law who is a totally loser and my parents think he walks on water. They love him. Him and my sister split up a few years ago due to his excessive drinking and he went back to his ex wife and slept with her and then came back to my sister. And the entire time they were separated (about 6 months) - he didn’t give my sister ONE CENT….in fact, one night he came over to see my niece and asked to borrow money for cigarettes. And while he was out running around, my parents were footing the bills. Now why is it that this loser is loved by my parents and my husband is a dog?
Well, I must get back to work