My thoughts are getting odd...
Work was busy this week, and instead of bussing I was hosting save for today, which was Mother's Day. I picked up my paycheck from the past two weeks and made 192 bucks on that, so I'll stash that in the bank and save it for something I probably don't need. A friend of mine wants me to go to Otacon with him so maybe I'll save for a plane ticket there or something. If that doesn't pan out, maybe I'll invest in a halfway decent laptop that isn't 1gb memory and Vista. Ugh.
My cell phone got $5 added to it for free thanks to Boost Mobile for whatever reason. It only lasts until the 28th unless I add more minutes, but I'll take it. I need a new phone with a Twitter app though so I can read tweets on the go and such easier. Yes, I'm pretty addicted to Twitter, but there are a bunch of people on there I talk to exclusively on there instead of IRC and AIM/MSN so it is kind of a big deal. I mean, I wouldn't mind talking to someone on AIM/MSN but those I have already are on IRC and those that aren't are not people I talk to constantly. Instead of badgering people about getting on there I just stay quiet about it instead. It would sound creepy to say "Hey, what is your AIM/MSN?" on Twitter for no reason.
I really don't know what else to say. I haven't really done much else. I haven't pursued any kind of goals or whatnot. Just... here on my own. Going beyond high school now and classmates I had are graduating college while I haven't even bothered to go because I know it'd be a waste of time. I wasn't that good in high school. I was lazy but could get away with it because everyone else made it possible. I was also a loner in high school, not really hanging out with friends and when I did I ended up being the one they joked at instead of hanging out. I never had a girlfriend either. I never considered it a big deal unlike a lot of my classmates and family. It just wasn't necessary.
Thinking about it now, I still don't need one, but I sometimes have this feeling I want one. Not for the satisfaction of having a girlfriend or anything shallow like that, but... having someone you can talk to about secrets, feelings, and play games, watch movies, just talk and things like that, with a mutual feeling of care for one another. It sounds cheesy, but that is something I wish to feel. Not manly? Who cares? I'm me. I can't change that, and I'd need someone to understand that.
I... uh, don't know what I'm typing at this point. I'm not that good of a writer and English was my least favorite academic course if you couldn't notice, so this whole rant probably doesn't make sense... but I've just been thinking these things a lot more recently. I don't know what to do now... or who to talk to without seeming intruding or creepy...
My cell phone got $5 added to it for free thanks to Boost Mobile for whatever reason. It only lasts until the 28th unless I add more minutes, but I'll take it. I need a new phone with a Twitter app though so I can read tweets on the go and such easier. Yes, I'm pretty addicted to Twitter, but there are a bunch of people on there I talk to exclusively on there instead of IRC and AIM/MSN so it is kind of a big deal. I mean, I wouldn't mind talking to someone on AIM/MSN but those I have already are on IRC and those that aren't are not people I talk to constantly. Instead of badgering people about getting on there I just stay quiet about it instead. It would sound creepy to say "Hey, what is your AIM/MSN?" on Twitter for no reason.
I really don't know what else to say. I haven't really done much else. I haven't pursued any kind of goals or whatnot. Just... here on my own. Going beyond high school now and classmates I had are graduating college while I haven't even bothered to go because I know it'd be a waste of time. I wasn't that good in high school. I was lazy but could get away with it because everyone else made it possible. I was also a loner in high school, not really hanging out with friends and when I did I ended up being the one they joked at instead of hanging out. I never had a girlfriend either. I never considered it a big deal unlike a lot of my classmates and family. It just wasn't necessary.
Thinking about it now, I still don't need one, but I sometimes have this feeling I want one. Not for the satisfaction of having a girlfriend or anything shallow like that, but... having someone you can talk to about secrets, feelings, and play games, watch movies, just talk and things like that, with a mutual feeling of care for one another. It sounds cheesy, but that is something I wish to feel. Not manly? Who cares? I'm me. I can't change that, and I'd need someone to understand that.
I... uh, don't know what I'm typing at this point. I'm not that good of a writer and English was my least favorite academic course if you couldn't notice, so this whole rant probably doesn't make sense... but I've just been thinking these things a lot more recently. I don't know what to do now... or who to talk to without seeming intruding or creepy...