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Have you ever been so upset, so torn up inside because someone you love is hurting, and you don't know what to say or do to make it all better for them? Despite wanting more than anything in the world to do just that?
I love someone. Whether it's platonic or romantic or familial is irrelevant right now. But I love someone. And suddenly, he's changed. A recent accident has mutated him from a carefree, spontaneous, loud, silly, crazy person to someone who wallows in misery all day and it kills me to see him like that.And I want to say something, do something, anything to get him to smile, no matter how small a smile it is, or how brief. Or a laugh, even just a little one. Even just a forced laugh, because at least that would mean he was trying. I want to give him a hug, or hold his hand, or pound on his chest until he sits up straight and tells me to stop it or he'll stab me in the eye. But I can't even do that. He lives too far away. And it just isn't fair, because he doesn't deserve to be sad. I don't want him to be sad.
I love someone. But he doesn't want to be loved right now. And that makes me saddest of all.