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I'm really terrible about updating this despite vowing to update every day. Deal with it.
Here's some shit about me.
Tonight I had a fantastic dinner at Tilikum Place Cafe. I had bacon wrapped dates with goat cheese and a grilled romaine salad with pistachios. Nothing ground breaking but everything was perfectly cooked and incredibly tasty. I had a few (shut up) glasses of a perfect Barbera and finished with a chocolate date cake/pudding thing with pear gelato and PISTACHIOS again. It was kind of a random dinner with Ryan but such a perfect night that it made me like him more than I really should. I'm trying to move the relationship into just a friendship cause no matter how cute Ryan may be (and his hair is awesome) - he just doesn't make me laugh.
Last week I had a fantastic dinner at Joule with Soco and an awful dinner at Fare Start with Soco as well. The ox tail dish at Joule was amazing with an incredible depth of flavor. Fare Start was awful on every level. Soco's pork loin was not cooked and mine was so over cooked that it was like eating shoe leather. I kept telling myself that it was for a good cause but I'm not philanthropic enough to ever go back.
After the awful dinner at Fare Start we saw the Broadway production of Xanadu (which was so much better than I imagined after my horrendous reaction to the cast recording). I was supposed to see the show with my sister cause we watched it every day back in the early 80s but she cancelled her trip without even telling me. She and her husband are having money probs and I totally understand that but I was very frustrated that she didn't tell me directly what was going on. I understand that she was embarrassed and didn't want to disappoint me but she could have called me and told me what was going on. I knew exactly what was happening cause I tend to avoid dealing with uncomfortable situation as well.
The other notable thing was the 1.5 hour conversation I had Tuesday night with the ex. It's the most normal conversation since we broke up 5 years ago (holy fucking shit its been 5 years?). There were moments of awkwardness but I really appreciated that he was giving me his full attention during the conversation and not checking his email or texting or driving or other wise ignoring me as he so often did when we were together. I know how valuable time is and for me it's a sign of respect when someone gives you undivided attention.
After we talked I realized that the reason I haven't been able to put him completely behind me is that he actually makes me feel something - good or bad. Most of the time I don't feel anything. I can't even describe it well other than to say it's an absence of feeling. I don't know why but Michael is one of the very few people who can make me feel something.
I'm leaving out a ton of other shit that's happened but my limited attention span has expired.
Tomorrow night is the opening of the bar that escaped my imagination and became Unicorn.
Here's some shit about me.
Tonight I had a fantastic dinner at Tilikum Place Cafe. I had bacon wrapped dates with goat cheese and a grilled romaine salad with pistachios. Nothing ground breaking but everything was perfectly cooked and incredibly tasty. I had a few (shut up) glasses of a perfect Barbera and finished with a chocolate date cake/pudding thing with pear gelato and PISTACHIOS again. It was kind of a random dinner with Ryan but such a perfect night that it made me like him more than I really should. I'm trying to move the relationship into just a friendship cause no matter how cute Ryan may be (and his hair is awesome) - he just doesn't make me laugh.
Last week I had a fantastic dinner at Joule with Soco and an awful dinner at Fare Start with Soco as well. The ox tail dish at Joule was amazing with an incredible depth of flavor. Fare Start was awful on every level. Soco's pork loin was not cooked and mine was so over cooked that it was like eating shoe leather. I kept telling myself that it was for a good cause but I'm not philanthropic enough to ever go back.
After the awful dinner at Fare Start we saw the Broadway production of Xanadu (which was so much better than I imagined after my horrendous reaction to the cast recording). I was supposed to see the show with my sister cause we watched it every day back in the early 80s but she cancelled her trip without even telling me. She and her husband are having money probs and I totally understand that but I was very frustrated that she didn't tell me directly what was going on. I understand that she was embarrassed and didn't want to disappoint me but she could have called me and told me what was going on. I knew exactly what was happening cause I tend to avoid dealing with uncomfortable situation as well.
The other notable thing was the 1.5 hour conversation I had Tuesday night with the ex. It's the most normal conversation since we broke up 5 years ago (holy fucking shit its been 5 years?). There were moments of awkwardness but I really appreciated that he was giving me his full attention during the conversation and not checking his email or texting or driving or other wise ignoring me as he so often did when we were together. I know how valuable time is and for me it's a sign of respect when someone gives you undivided attention.
After we talked I realized that the reason I haven't been able to put him completely behind me is that he actually makes me feel something - good or bad. Most of the time I don't feel anything. I can't even describe it well other than to say it's an absence of feeling. I don't know why but Michael is one of the very few people who can make me feel something.
I'm leaving out a ton of other shit that's happened but my limited attention span has expired.
Tomorrow night is the opening of the bar that escaped my imagination and became Unicorn.