May is gloomy!

May 17, 2005 20:55

Everyone is leaving town soon and it feels like for the first time, I'm not the one seeking change. I like the way things are right now. Everyone will leave and grow without me, while I continue bobbling about UCSC, eerily feeling old. no fun.
I've come to terms with the fact that I have no real, desirable skills that will enable me to have a kickass, high paying job. I'm ok with that, but I don't want to be imprisoned later by the choices I make now. Gotta keep trying to kick ass, even if I'm in that comfort zone. I want to leave the Cruz. I love this town but this is the place where I so embraced apathy. There used to be a time when I thought 8:30 was sleeping in. And I'm slacking on the personal appearance. I've become unhip to the point of embaressment. well, honestly, I'm even to lazy to be embaressed about it, really. I'm even too embaressed to go back and capitalize "W" in the last sentence. blah.

A LIST OF MY CURRENT VALUES
1. food
2. Killian
3. band
4. sleep
5. beer
6. friends
7. school
8. work
9. paying bills
10.keeping in touch with family
11. taking a shower
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