ANTM and other ugly things
I have to say, I'm not all the impressed with the new season of Top Model. Some of those girls are, in a nutshell, just plain ugly. I have fun though, putting them down and making fun of them with Kevin and Willie. We have a pretty good laugh once a week at their expense. And that makes me feel good.
I am definetely ready for Spring Break. Some of the kids in my class... I just need a break from them. A break that involves the beach, hiking, and not thinking about school, assessments, or anything else education related. I am at my "class limit" of 25 right now and I got the last new kid (about a week ago). A new girl will be starting after break and she's going into... yep, my classroom. The good news is that I will be technically on classroom overload; the bad news is our current contract's language is about as helpful as tits on a bull and I'm only going to get an aide for 20 minutes a day. Yeah, 20 minutes is going to make a lot of difference... Give me an aide for half the day now and I'd be happy. Seriously.
"The Duchess" arrived from Netflix today. I'm excited to have a nice cup of tea and watch it.
Oh yeah, the nightly crunches aren't working out so well. I kind of forgot about that until I made cookies earlier this week. I shall begin anew. I need structure for that. Perhaps in the morning, when I first get up? Or right when I get home from work? Something needs to be worked out. I need my own eliptical. Then I can eat whatever I want. :) Too bad those things aren't like $20 or something...
On the Mom and Dad homefront, nothing much has changed. Mom calls once every couple of weeks and chats for about five minutes before saying she has to get off the phone. It's weird. I always felt very close to both my parents, but I really have nothing to say to my mom when she calls. And I don't call her often because I just don't know what to say. This is mainly because I'm still ticked by the way she left my dad, but also because when I do talk to her, she doesn't seem to be listening. It's all very on the surface superficial with her lately. And its hard to talk to Dad at times because he wants to have indepth analysis converstaions about my mom's behavior and meaning of her words. She calls him about every two weeks and yells at him or accuses him of something. Everyone says "she'll be back soon" but I'm really not seeing it. I have this conflict inside of me because things she's doing pisses me off, but at the same time she's my mom and I can't just not talk to her or ignore it. It makes me sad to think about never talking to my mom or not seeing her on holidays (my last visit home comprised of Kevin and me meeting her at Jamba Juice on SH and talking for about a half an hour). It's just strange. It's just been so awkward because our family did use to be very close knit. Now its just...strange. I don't know what to do to help myself and to help my family. I want to be there for my mom as much as I have for my dad, but she's not opening up to me like my dad and not caring enough to even listen to what I'm doing. She says she wants to see me and she misses me, but she doesn't act like it. Mom's changed a lot and I think she's been changing for some time, but wasn't really showing it. Now its just like WA-BAM! this is who I am now. And we have to find a way to adjust to that. And now I'm tired of thinking about it. I'll remain dorment on the issue until it really bothers me again.
"Now, bring me that horizon..." I am SO ready for a beach trip!
I am definetely ready for Spring Break. Some of the kids in my class... I just need a break from them. A break that involves the beach, hiking, and not thinking about school, assessments, or anything else education related. I am at my "class limit" of 25 right now and I got the last new kid (about a week ago). A new girl will be starting after break and she's going into... yep, my classroom. The good news is that I will be technically on classroom overload; the bad news is our current contract's language is about as helpful as tits on a bull and I'm only going to get an aide for 20 minutes a day. Yeah, 20 minutes is going to make a lot of difference... Give me an aide for half the day now and I'd be happy. Seriously.
"The Duchess" arrived from Netflix today. I'm excited to have a nice cup of tea and watch it.
Oh yeah, the nightly crunches aren't working out so well. I kind of forgot about that until I made cookies earlier this week. I shall begin anew. I need structure for that. Perhaps in the morning, when I first get up? Or right when I get home from work? Something needs to be worked out. I need my own eliptical. Then I can eat whatever I want. :) Too bad those things aren't like $20 or something...
On the Mom and Dad homefront, nothing much has changed. Mom calls once every couple of weeks and chats for about five minutes before saying she has to get off the phone. It's weird. I always felt very close to both my parents, but I really have nothing to say to my mom when she calls. And I don't call her often because I just don't know what to say. This is mainly because I'm still ticked by the way she left my dad, but also because when I do talk to her, she doesn't seem to be listening. It's all very on the surface superficial with her lately. And its hard to talk to Dad at times because he wants to have indepth analysis converstaions about my mom's behavior and meaning of her words. She calls him about every two weeks and yells at him or accuses him of something. Everyone says "she'll be back soon" but I'm really not seeing it. I have this conflict inside of me because things she's doing pisses me off, but at the same time she's my mom and I can't just not talk to her or ignore it. It makes me sad to think about never talking to my mom or not seeing her on holidays (my last visit home comprised of Kevin and me meeting her at Jamba Juice on SH and talking for about a half an hour). It's just strange. It's just been so awkward because our family did use to be very close knit. Now its just...strange. I don't know what to do to help myself and to help my family. I want to be there for my mom as much as I have for my dad, but she's not opening up to me like my dad and not caring enough to even listen to what I'm doing. She says she wants to see me and she misses me, but she doesn't act like it. Mom's changed a lot and I think she's been changing for some time, but wasn't really showing it. Now its just like WA-BAM! this is who I am now. And we have to find a way to adjust to that. And now I'm tired of thinking about it. I'll remain dorment on the issue until it really bothers me again.
"Now, bring me that horizon..." I am SO ready for a beach trip!