so much as happened...
well, it's official the swim season is over =( it's so sad. i almost cried.. I got most improved and stuff it was great.. but oh well i guess.i'll see a good portion of them next year.. but our seniors are gonna be greatly missed and i think they know that... but yea after the banqet thing my sister and i had to run and i was in heels... and yea i ended uptwisting my ankle and i kept trying to recover my trip.. but nope i looked like a crab on my way down.. hehehe and then i rolled on to my back and i ended up hitting my head pretty hard (or at least thats what my sister said I don't remember that part of the fall..) but yea my entire body hurts and i hurt my knee pretty bad again.. so thats just great... but when i woke up this morning..my told me she wanted to talk to me.
When i do go and talk to her she tells me to lay down with her...and she says " i want to know what your thoughts about everything..thats going on.." and i was like "weeeellll.. school sucks..." (as a joke) and she was like "i thought you liked amphi" and i was like " I do i do. i was joking but the school part really sucks..." and she laughs but than she says "i want to know what your thoughts about everything going on in your life..." and i was like well the whole thing with dad... and she asked if i felt abbandoned. and i wasn't going to lie.. i really do feel like my dad is abbanoning me.. i hate that feeling... i guess my sister's dad abbandoned her.. and my mom was telling me that her dad seemed as if he didn't really care...he kind of just pretended.. but i dad really loves me.. but i told her his actions sometimes doesn't seem like he loves me as much as he says he does... and than i told her that the whole thing with our trailer...we got a note if we don't pay a certain amount of money by the 30th of this month...we have 31 days to find another place to live...i told her it's ridiculous that we have to move because manny never paid rent when you had your 5 month medical leave... and she agreed.. so she told me how she came to the conclusion that shes going to ask manny to move out at the end of this month with his mother. and we are going to find a place for the two of us.. .Also lately manny has been really mean to me and we think he's been drinking again.. so she said he needs to fo somethinking and my doctor doesn't think living at the trailer park and in that trailer with manny is a good enviroment for me to live in at the moment.
so mom and i went apartment shopping.. so we'll see we are trying to find the apartments that are in or near the amphi district so i can stay at amphi... I don't know whats going on right now.. it kind of sucks.. i don't know what to think... and this whole thing with my dad... it's really bringing me down.. i don't want to talk to him really because i don't want to have to say goodbye... I'm mad and really hurt and upset by what he's doing.. i never thought he would..what can you do i guess...this woman doesn't know how to take care of him.. when he's hurting or how much he can walk.. why he wears the clothes he wears.. shes making him dress in American eagle clothes i dont understand....
well i got to go.. i'm startin to get really sick...my body's startin to break down like earlier on this year... great...