I SHIMMY! EVERYONE! SHIMMY!
Well, i'm sitting here at 12:00pm. Thinking...? Hmmm...i'm stressing. I found myself going back into "the old times" today. And when i mean "old times" i mean bad horrible times. Arguing with parents...
Why is it i feel like when they say i'm nothing. i am nothing. and when someone else says i'm nothing. i believe i'm not. Well, what i'm trying to say is that i believe what my parents say i am. they're the only people on this earth that i really care about what they think of me. it makes me sick. Cause i don't want to have to worry about what they say. But, when it's constantly coming at you. it sticks with you. But, i swear once i turn 18 i'm out of here. Maybe even earlier. i don't wanna be stuck were i'll always be put down and feel like this.
i talked to phrank today. we were suposed to go see the Adolescents today. But of course. i couldn't go. No ride. So, i stayed home extremely depressed. and i still am. i was really looking forward to seeing him. Well, talking to him on the phone wasn't so great. i was all sad. cause of the whole thing earlier. and then telling him that i couldn't go just made me want to DIE! he got all sad. so i've been feeling horrible all day. and even worse now. *SIGH*. i don't know what to do anymore.
Then tony called. he's such an annoying perv...
Well, thats pretty much all i have to say. Oh, and i stole josh's pennywise shirt along with his suspenders, belt, and palemade! lol. tootles.
Why is it i feel like when they say i'm nothing. i am nothing. and when someone else says i'm nothing. i believe i'm not. Well, what i'm trying to say is that i believe what my parents say i am. they're the only people on this earth that i really care about what they think of me. it makes me sick. Cause i don't want to have to worry about what they say. But, when it's constantly coming at you. it sticks with you. But, i swear once i turn 18 i'm out of here. Maybe even earlier. i don't wanna be stuck were i'll always be put down and feel like this.
i talked to phrank today. we were suposed to go see the Adolescents today. But of course. i couldn't go. No ride. So, i stayed home extremely depressed. and i still am. i was really looking forward to seeing him. Well, talking to him on the phone wasn't so great. i was all sad. cause of the whole thing earlier. and then telling him that i couldn't go just made me want to DIE! he got all sad. so i've been feeling horrible all day. and even worse now. *SIGH*. i don't know what to do anymore.
Then tony called. he's such an annoying perv...
Well, thats pretty much all i have to say. Oh, and i stole josh's pennywise shirt along with his suspenders, belt, and palemade! lol. tootles.